mY woRld ! ! !

August 24.. 2wks to P.O.P!

2007-08-24T00:23:00.000+08:00

finally.. after strugglin for so long in the army... its just 2 more weeks till my passing out parade haha!....

all this time in the army.. life hasnt been peaceful and smooth at all... lots and lots of things to do.. lesser and lesser slping time we have.. and ya.. the most jialat one of all is field camp.. hah~ 6days 5nights of no bathing and having to wear ur sweaty, wet and smelly shirt throughout the camp is really.... really .... really... quite an 'interesting' experience haha

but.. i really have to thank someone.. someone close and dear to me..

and tats.....

my.. BABY!

all these while.. she has accompanied me and my parents to send me back to camp on sundays and whenever i book out she will oso make an extra effort to get off earlier from work just to come and fetch me from pasir ris!

*thx darling... tired from work le still must come and fetch me... ^^*

without my baby... i guess.. theres no way i could haf survived the harsh training in Army... all those field camp... all those physical lessons.... the only reason i could go through them was the image of my baby in my mind... thinking of her... thinking of the booking out day where i can meet her is my only source of moltivation that i haf.. and tat was how i literally push myself to complete my field camp..

it really feels gd to know that u haf someone waiting for you back here at SG while u r out there all alone training... i guess this is a feeling that most of the NSF men would agree with me rite? =)

thx baby... i love you lotz! muaCkZ!
Thx for being there for me till these day and for all times baby^^
muAcKZz!

new hairstyle!

2007-01-24T02:51:00.000+08:00

hihi~ lolx itx been long since i blogged... (i think i haf been repeating this sentence like 999 times liao lolx) but anyway.... baobei and i went for a hair cut today!!! its at my mum's salon at Toa Payoh~

In-House Saloon
Blk 73 Toa Payoh Lor 4 #01-597
Singapore 310073
Tel:62536168

If anyone nids a haircut or a perf job to be done plz visit my mum's saloon =) hahaha kk advertising ends here...

these are some of the pictures tat we took~

Bao Zhu Puo~~~~ haahhhaAHAHaha gonna get a scolding from baobei when she sees this =X but..... look at the results!!

haha nice rite =) this is a different kind of perf which we tried on the whole head using chemicals^^

and now... and picture of the both of us with our new hairstyles lolx

well... mine quite normal la... but i like it alot!! ez to manage and style =X

tml gonna eat curry fish head with baobei!! cant wait~~ heeeeeeeeee paiseh... havnt been bringing u out for nice meals lately T_T make it up to u sometime soon k? =)

hohoho~~ assignments half complete at last!!! left... i think 2 more?? then exams liao.... hopefully everything goes smoothly.. i just wanna graduate in peace...

its been long since i played mahjong lolx~ finally tml is the day!! celebrate the end of the WDD project?? lolx hand itchy hohoho~ better get some slp soon.. if not no strength to concentrate tml hhaha got dylan and eames playin .... cannot be tooo careless =X

nitez all~~~ *vanishes*

trouble maker is back!

2006-12-06T01:35:00.000+08:00

ta ta ta daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

if theres an award for trouble making.... doing wrong things... saying wrong stuff.... i would seriously be the champion.... T_T sigh......... y am i so dumb..

anyone out there can give any opinions as to wad can i do to get forgiveness? ....

i have been doing dumb things to make baobei sad+angry lately... *punch myself*...... BUT! now is not the time to feel depressed!!!!! hafta buck up and earn baobei's forgiveness!!

Also..... not just earn the forgiveness.. but oso not to repeat them again......

baobei.... im really sry for the stupid nonsense tat i did.... s..o..r...r....y.......

T_T 我不乖~
对不起我不会再这样了！

HAPPY BDAY!

2006-11-29T23:21:00.000+08:00

bHAPPY BDAY TO Douglas! A.K.A Tir4misu A.K.A r3iz !!! and thats... ME!!! =) heeeeeeeeeeee

well.. its kinda already over tho.. it was on the 27 of NOV!

it was a wonderful bday celebration for me!! =) i have like ang baos from friends, parents, grandparents and guess wad?! baobei's mum also gave me and ang bao too!! and... i now can go over to her place for dinner with them!! heeeee^^ huge improvement!! lolxxxx my classmates bought me a Razer mouse! the Krait~ =) feels dope and looks dope too hahaa

this is the presents tat baobei bought for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =)

the picture in the photo frame is made of jigsaw puzzles o!!! =) very very 'xi xin' from baobei! thx thx thx thx i really really love it alot!

had alot of 'fish' for my bday lolx.. ate manhattan with mark they all and went to fish&co with my classmates ahaa and as for me and baobei.. we went.................. HOG BREATH CAFE!! =)
check out the food~

ahha itssss veryyyyyyy veryyyyyyyy nice! at C.H.I.J.M.E.S ! =) and that valet parking thing... almost made me thought that i lost my car... phew... lucky for me.. its just that auntie blur.. pengz...

and after dinning at Hog Breath Cafe with baobei... we headed home.... and.... baobei bought a bday cake for me!!!! mango cheese cake! yummy!

hee... baobei.. thx for everything that you haf done for me... very touched.. and i really appreciated it alot... thx! =) oh.. not forgetting.. i love the bday song that u sang for me! heeeeee =) it was soooooooo sweet of u!

and last but not least.. some of the pix that we took together

thx baobei... I LOVE U! =)

and for all my friends out there... thx guys! it was a bday not to forget!

OMG cranky com...

2006-11-23T15:20:00.000+08:00

omg... my com is acting wierd lately... when im in sch... sometimes my com will end up auto shutting down and it can happen like maybe 5-6 times.... BUT! when im at home... its perfectly normal!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz i wonder y.....

its my 6th wk in school liao.... just another... i think 8-9wks more for me to graduate?? plz dun spoil now.. i nid my laptop -.-

sigh.. its gonna be another bz wk... assignment.. assignment.... assignment........... getting harder and harder.... stress sia -.- its already my last semester be4 i graduate... i just hope to get pass this semester and get on with life....

prayz hard*

maturity..

2006-11-06T01:25:00.000+08:00

How can one exactly mature...... i wish i really will know the key to the answer...

i nid to mature more... mature for my future... mature for baobei and my future.... mature for my parents.. mature for my friends... mature for myself...

but.. how????....

sigh... theres so many bad points abt me that i must overcome......

Have been thinking alot abt baobei and my future.... i just so wanna everything to go rite.. to go smoothly.. to work out fine.....
im very scared things would go wrong.... and i would let baobei suffer.....

i hope to be a person who can shoulder baobei and my family.... but how can i do it?......

since young.. ive had everything and anything i wanted at my will.... i guess its time now for me to give more then i receive... ive received too much.... too too much...... i hope to give... to let my love ones feel happy...

it certaintly wont be ez.. but.. i really hope that i will be able to do it...

i really want to...

Lost my way home (yet again....)

2006-10-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

Yep.. as the title of of post explains.... ive lost my way home again! =) sigh.... im a lousy 'lu chi'....

While drivin to my friend's place at Jurong to collect my tennis rackets... i missed the exit at the highway!!! aRHGhgGHgh!!! i already anticipated it loR! just that got this stupid car driving beside me... blocking my way.. i intended to slow down to let it go first then i cut in from behind him... BUT HE WAS DRIVING LIKE A 'WU GUI!'.... omg.... then couldnt help it but to miss the exit....

I had to make a really big detour at balestier... then going to whitney road and comtinuing my journey to Jurong lor.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz crappy car like moves like a snail...

After that.. on the way home..... i lost my way again... reason being... i tot that i shld turn out to BKE then to SLE then to yishun..... but NOOOOOOOOOOooooooooo.... after turning out of BKE i saw the turn left to KJE + Pie(Tuas) or... go straight to.... JOHOR!!!!! OMG!!..... of course i had to make the turn ma... if not go johor liao... zzzz....

turn here turn there.... ended up at Seng Siong Supermarket... then back to clementi again.... (back to square one..) from there on.. i remembered my painful mistake and did not turn out to BKE liao... just went straight all the way to Ang Mo Kio CTE and found my way HOmeeeee!!!!

it was a long journey.... driving at a comfortable speed crusing along the roads of Singapore (although that is so NOT wad i intended for...) kinda hoped that baobei was wif me at that time... it would make the whole journey alot more pleasent.. and it would be pretty nice to haf a spin arnd Singapore with baobei too! =)

Too bad... i was alone.... quite sad.......... zzzzzzzz

think i hafta learn the roads from my mum liao... if can.... when me and my mum is free... she is probably gonna guide me on how to travel to different places in Singapore liao... hahhaa cant help it... i hafta try improve on my 'lu chi-ness' haha

hopefully i will improve ba....

school work with baobei

2006-10-29T02:51:00.000+08:00

heeeee finally managed to do sch work with baobei! =)

still cant help but feel tat baobei is not yet ok with my way of discussion... but at least we haf a start!!! =) at least its something... and from here on we can work something out together!

baobei... be tolerant wif me k? i will improve de!

Not as easy as i thought..

2006-10-28T19:37:00.000+08:00

Nutting worked out... baobei is beside me right now and we are doing our work... but ya... no conversations... no words.... no talking... nutting...... everything was so ok untill work started.... i still didnt manage to get baobei to talk to me on work stuff....

im just my useless self.... yet again....

still tot we can strive together and work hard.... zzz i guess impossible?... i really am useless eh... cant even work properly with baobei... if it was just someone else.. i wont even haf cared... or it wont even bother me one bit... but this time its baobei.... between me and her... we cant even talk about our work stuff.. how sad... cant blame her or anyone though.. its my fault from the very start....

even an asshole called allan could help her with her work during her intership over at OM... zzzz i cant even do crap....

feeling dam useless now.... i think.. probably... im just insignificant ... maybe...

Nutting but trouble..

2006-10-28T11:57:00.000+08:00

Recently i seem to be doing even more stupid things... things that would anger the ppl arnd me... and especially... baobei......

Right now.. theres quite afew things which i nid to do. stuff like learning how to be more of a team player.. stuff like gaining more knowledge on subjects that would help me in the future.... stuff like getting into the good books of baobei's parents/family....

its kinda weird.. but im pretty nervous right now.. baobei is gonna come over my place to study wif me in a while... pretty scared that i might say something wrong or do something stupid again to make her upset.. realised that i havnt been a tactful person when it comes to work...

really hope that everything will go on fine.. and that we will be able to work together harmoniously...

just a few nites ago.. i asked my friend mark about 'future' stuff.... things like future plans... future jobs... financially how to get by... cause i was rather clouded by many things... cannot really see and think straight.... but well.. he said something that made pretty much sense and also to make me stop thinking off track...

He told me to gain knowledge first...... then with all this knowledge i will then be able to find a path... and do something.....

rather then keep thinking w/o knowledge... wont get me anywhere..

who doesnt wan his/her life to be smooth sailing? ha... i do! tts y... alot of hard work has to be put in... in order to obtain a better life in the future!

hari raya!

2006-10-24T13:17:00.000+08:00

morning!! =) just kinda woke up.. abit late eh lolx

yesterday during my 'PI' (professional issues) module in sch.. the teacher said something pretty meaningful..

"We are what we do.... We are what we think...."

this is one of the answer to the questions when some ppl ask: "who am i? why am i existing? what is my purpose of living?" (note.. theres no right or wrong answer.. its just an opinion.. a food for thought)

Some philosphers believed in this: "Existentialist" (hopefully i didnt type wrongly...)

this word means... we 'exist' first then comes the 'essence'... hence the word Existentialist...

explaination:
some ppl always ask themselves... y am i here..y am i born.. for wad purpose? for wad goal?.... in this term of Existentialist.. it means u exist.. u are born... u are here on earth first!.. then comes the essence of it... which is... u are wad u do with this life of urs.. and u are wad u think with this life of urs.....

sry if i left u reading and feeling blur... lolx.. its pretty hard to explain and describe in words sometimes....

however it is still pretty meaningful to me =) hope that if anyone reads this post would feel the same way too

omg..

2006-10-23T00:54:00.000+08:00

its been... Aeons and centuries since ive last blogged!! hahaha.... i bet no one's updating on my blog anymore anywayz lolxxxx besides my baobei! thx! heeee

I was playin AuditionSEA untill my laptop suddenly auto shut down by itself 3 times!!! omg..... i think its due to me not turning my laptop off for 2-3days in a row?... was downloading anime.. Hajime no Ippo!! very vey nice anime on Boxing! =)

zz i think i better let my laptop rest for abit... lots of assignment is coming up soon... my laptop better not die on me.....

was wondering if i shld get myself a desktop next time after NS? considering the fact that i am quite a heavy user myself.. but it will cost me arnd 2.5k?? and on top of that.. my laptop would be redundant liao... well.. after NS would be rougly 2.5years later la.. so.. it's specs would probably also be faced out and become 'old school' as well....

or should i .... get myself an external HDD? to add on to my laptop's lousy memory space? and as well as a laptop cooler/fan? so that it will kinda be ok for me to turn it on for more nitez? and its pretty much cheaper too.. probably will just cost me $150 to get this 2 items...

so how?? any suggestions?

oh well.. i better get my tagboard up so tat u guys can even tag me.. lolx!

..

2006-09-27T03:37:00.000+08:00

this is my final piece.. fried the first one..

ya.. nitez...

fashion design

2006-09-22T01:46:00.000+08:00

been wanting to try out designing my own apparels.... like for example the most basic one would be tee-shirt design.. graphic tees... managed to come out with a graphic design which i felt aint bad for starters! =) gonna buy the materiels tml and hopefully it would be able to be 'created' lolx... i wonder how it would turn out... zzzzz

haahaha went to have a drink with my classmates they all... not club.. but just a small drink over at 'balcony' located at heeren.... each of us had a shot of sex on the beach and then the few of us.. mainly me and baobei, eames and irene, dajun and eugene each shared a cup of waterfall =) cool drink haha

pretty tired le nitez!!

kicked....

2006-09-17T03:02:00.000+08:00

hah.... i got kicked out of the superstar compy le... only managed to get to rnd 2.... and.. i got kicked out without any comments summore lolx... just a flashing red light and a cruel 'teeeddddddd' sound...

after all the waiting.... since rnd 1 till now.. u wont believe it... out of the 2500 ppl who went for the first rnd.. only 111 made it to the 2nd rnd... and ... im the number 111th one to be auditioned... yes... im the last one! the very last one! ..zzzzzzzzzzz

special and great thx to baobei for staying with me thru out this whole competition be it rain or shine.. im really touched and i really really appreciate it alot... thx baobei.... muackz!! love u =)

special thx to mark oso lolx~~ came down both times on rnd 1 and 2 to keep me and baobei accompany =) hahahaha although alot of 'fei hua' from him but... heee it would haf been a much more straineous wait without him around talking cock =X

to my mum... thx for forking out time from work to come and listen to me sing =) .... though i didnt get in.. but i would say its my best stage performance le~~~ hope at least u guys liked my singing....

thx to all my friends who gave me their blessings too!!! heee... thx thx thx =)

tts all there is to my music dream... at least its a nice ending =)

THAnk YOU ALL!!!!!!

superstar rnd2 !

2006-09-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

its my round 2 audition of SuperStar tml..... at 11am... at toa payoh central... haiz.... gettin pretty nervous.... cant hlp feelin tat i sound wierd or something...

well.. at least baobei will be there with me tml.. it would hlp =) makes me more confident too! haha... and.. this is the first time i would be singing on stage infront of baobei.. i hope to make it a nice one...

right now... im just seeking to leave an impression on stage ( a good one of course ) and i guess... that would be sufficient =)

nitez... tell u guys my results tml!

SuperStar 2!

2006-09-04T17:36:00.000+08:00

First of all... i wanna give lots of thanks to baobei for supporting and accompanying me for the superstar audition... u guys wont understand how tiring and how bad the queue was... me and baobei queued up under the hot sun from 9.30am till 7pm.... nearly ten hours!!! DOING NUTTING BUT STONE UNDER THE SUN AND WAIT!!!! ... and because of this.. baobei had a burnt on her nose.. stupid hot sun....

and the best part was... THE DATE WAS EXTENDED! .. meaning.... we queued for 10hrs and in return.. they ask us to come back again tml... zzzzzzzzzzzzz

after que-ing so long.. u expect us to give up and forget it?! cannot be ma... so baobei again accompanied me down for the auditions today... sigh.... hafta stone for afew hrs again...

but! all was worth it ba... because....

I GOT THRU THE FIRST RND OF SUPERSTAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo!!!
my goal achieved!! heeeee

i only wanted to get thru the first rnd to prove that i improved.... and now... im just gonna work hard and enjoy the compy... =) hafta prepare for the next rnd on the 16th of sept!

wish me luck!

cant get myself to slp..

2006-09-02T05:41:00.000+08:00

its now already 5.35am.... and i still cant force myself to slp.... each time i close my eyes i keep seeing images and scenes which i so do not wan them to happen... im scared.. im feelin sad.... im feeling bad about myself..

i feel so lost... keep making mistakes.. keep doing stupid things.... keep avoiding things.....

it all happened so fast... one moment everything was so nice and perfect.. suddenly the next.... it felt as if it was the end of the world for me.... this feeling.. this feeling really feels so bad... feels like u cant breath... feels like u are falling off a cliff without anything to cling on to.. it feels like ur surroundings all became black and white...

im really sry for wad i did... i probably said this like 999 times... but im really sorry... cant find any other words to express my feelings.. feel like punching myself... y the fuck am i so dumb.... my heart really hurts alot rite now... alot of mix emotions.. alot of deep thoughts... alot of flashing images of wad may happen going thru my head....

thinking too much? maybe.... i dunno....

hmmm...

2006-08-27T13:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's outing with baobei was GREAT! AWESOME! OMG! in the morning we went down to WILD WILD WET and had great time playing all the rides and relaxing in the circular pool called "Shiok River" and oso relaxing ourselves at the wave pool called "Tsunami".. i felt that the 2 most interesting ride was the "Power Slide" and the "Ular lar" heee~ dam fun!!!!

really felt very hungry after tat... so we went to haf KFC! u know.... after swimming and stuff.. all these finger food = HEAVEN! lolxXxxx

we passed by an arcade and decided to play afew games lolx.. play untill we were like so tired... y? cause we challenged ourselves into playing the basketball hoop game where there are 4 stages and we only managed to go to the third stage .. sigh... *first time playing ma*... but we tried and tried untill our arms cannot really raise up liao... tired...

last but not least...we went down to my mum's workplace for... SPA and MASSAGE! Woaaaaa shIOK AR!!! tt was wad i really needed man... my body has been aching for sooo long i really needed a good massage... after tat we went into the steamer and then.... to the "hot spring"!! dun really know wad they call tat... but its the pool with one side hot water and the other side cold water~ omg... its soooooooooooooooooooooooo relaxing..... sooooooo gddddddddddd....... simply felt heaven....

hope to be able to go for spa with baobei again someday! ^^

like i said.. im planning to stop my music lessons.... felt that ive already spent a huge fortune on music already for the past 3yrs+..... so i guess maybe its time i put an end to it and maybe let myself take up something new??

been thinking of taking up a dance + a sport .... sport because i wanna keep fit a little.. getting fat liaoz zzzzzzzzzz........... T_T.... and dance for interest.... hmmm shld i ??

sigh......

2006-08-25T02:32:00.000+08:00

haiz.... im being unattentive again..... baobei not feelin very well lately... got a wisdom tooth in the process of growing out and its hurting her like mad.... and as well as gastric which she told me on the phone and i did not hear...

jialat.... -.-~~ havnt been showing her the attention that she requires.. sry baobei.... T_T~ i will change/improve de ok? =)

alot of stuff going thru my mind lately.... mainly things about the future.. but wadever it is.. its all for the better... its all for wad i hope to accomplish in life! =)

wanted to read my book tonite but... its kinda late liao.. plus i haf work in the morning tml... haf the sudden urge to skip work tml... cause anyway they already haf 2 full timers on station there tml... dun see y they nid me... but well... cannot be like tat rite? will try to drag my body out of bed tml morning... *hopefully* lolx...

nitez guys.... sugar dreams all =)

seemingly series of unfortunate events...

2006-08-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

this mth has full of surprises... ups and downs for me...

first of all this mth due to over-expenditure im already kinda tight as i start of the mth with much lesser then wad i would normally haf... and guess wad..... I BOUGHT THE WRONG CONCESSION CARD! T_T.... i bought the bus concession instead of the MRT one... and it could not be changed... meaning i hafta wait for my bus concession to end be4 i can purchase the MRT concession card... and tat would take 1 mth!!!!!! so now.. ontop of me having much lesser then i normally do... i still haf to top up my card every 3-4 days to enable me on my MRT rides... crap rite!!

and recently i managed to get myself a Sony PSP!! yeaA!! HOWEVER!! it cannot play downloadable games!!! and i purposely bought it for that purpose!! while trying to play those games.. my psp hanged and froze and scared the crap outta me.. tot tat it would die on me... really...

but today... after eating a miracle roast duck.... IT WORKED!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA can play liao!!! woohoooo

p.s: it sometimes pays to listen to the elderly for their pantang "comments" =X (kidding~~)

感触

2006-08-20T03:45:00.000+08:00

今天回家的时候突然间心里面有很多的感触。
宝贝好像不开心，跟她妈妈起了一点小冲突。。所以觉得有点难过。。。
我好担心。。好担心。。。

有一次宝贝她很难过但却没有打给我。。只用短讯的方式跟我说。。。但是那时的我却已经睡着了。。没有听到短讯的铃声。。。让宝贝独自一人难过却又没人能听她述说她的不开心。。。她的难过。。那时的我很气很气我自己。。对自己说。。我刘瑞海不会再让宝贝伤心难过了！。。。

但是现在的她。。难过。。但我却无能为力。。

我好逊。。。。

真差劲。。。。

今天在回家的路上突然想到。。。我和宝贝在一起已经有半年了。。。在这半年了。。我们从暧昧到相爱到学习到热恋值到现在。。。学习是因为当初的我真的很不会做一个男朋友。。让宝贝觉得很空虚。。。直到现在。。。我们想请想爱，手牵着手的走到现在。。。真的长大了好多好多。。。

宝贝。。现在的你开心吗？幸福吗？睡的好吗？在难过吗？心里觉得辛苦吗？我好想好想清口对你说一句。。“宝贝晚安~ 我爱你 =)”

好想和你分担你的哀与怒。。和你分享你的喜与乐。。
call u later ok? anything u feeling down abt oso can speak to me =)

nitez baobei

thanks to all those who gave me tips and guidance..

2006-08-17T01:22:00.000+08:00

Thinking back upon my journey thru my music life...

i wonder... has it already been 4yrs?? learning music ever since secondary4-5 right up till now.. polytechnic yr3... ventured from keyboard composing to learning wad i really wanted.. vocals... went to different music schools to learn from different ppl.. made friends and of course made 'enemies' (Sxcaven in particular).... many ups and many downs... but all these experiences made me who i am today^^ all these ppl that ive met each taught me valuable lessons in my life..

im going to stop learning music... and i would like to thank all those who haf ever taught me... gave me tips.... discuss with me about music/singing... and also those who i haf worked with to stage all those performances.. to create all those memories...

hopefully i dun miss anyone out.. (if i do... paiseh arhx =X)

i would like to thank these ppl who haf taught me about music: Tang Yu Xuan, Ein Ein, Kelly, Lin Juan, Zheng Quan, Estella, Lin Jun Jie (teacher from lee wei song), Sherlyn, Chris, Simon.

haha seems like quite alot.. wonder if ive left out any... sry if i did =X old liao... memory not gd *ahem ahem*..............

Arigato Gozaimasu!!!!!

nvr ever so pissed part 2!!!

2006-08-16T11:02:00.000+08:00

OMG FREAKING GOD!......... aqua leh... if you wanna talk it out then come find me la! y go email mich?????????? aqua....

this is the mails tat he mailed to baobei.. which is really really so f*** up... making it as if he is the victims and we play the bad person.... trying to twist the story up.... plz la.. dare to do dare not admit ar?? asshole..

those in red are my own text to shoot him back.

(Mail 1)

I am so dissapointed in you telling the "jokes" i made to him. Replying your msn conversation, peeking your msn converstion, closing your msn window, seeing your password?? Fine if you say i did it although i didn (u sure u didnt? plz la stop defending urself saying u did all the right things and ultimately if u cant lie tat u did it.. u use "oh~ its just a joke" as an excuse.. fuck off la). I didn know you are that petty and minded them and you could have stated that firmly. Im sorry then. Guess this end it all. In fact i shouldn even tried to make you laugh. (plz la... u urself dun even haf the brains to know wad can be done and wad can not... dun expect anyone to spoon feed u with their emotions...)

Oh for the sake that i helped you in your IAP project abit one last request from me, please don't show him this email. And in case you did, hi there douglas and yes i don't like you and no im not trying to "harras" her with this email just trying to apologise for the jokes. (plz.. apologetic?? dun seem so to me)

Sorry

(Mail 2, which is much more infuriating!!! TMD he say untill he like so noble????!!!)

argh the more i think about it the more it frustrate me. i think i got backstabbed and died unreasonably. I need to explain myself. (u sure u got backstabbed??? or rather have u been backstabbing me all this while instead? talk cock!)

".. u haf been repeadly insulting me.."
I already promised you since your birthday i wouldn't go insult your boyfriend and so had i ceased alot. (WOW! so i must THANK YOU!??! ive been eating ur insults so long.. mich had to plz u to stop insulting me.. and since u ceased alot.. i haf to thank you instead??? eh WTF IS THIS KINDA LOGIC??)

"peeking at mich's msn conversations.."
Come on, you didn even really make a fuss about it and i never hear you say, hey i don't like you invading your privacy, please turn your square head away or something like that. (LIKE I SAID.. NOT EVERYONE IS LIKE U SO THICK SKINNED! dun expect anyone to spoonfeed u with their emotions! wtf... are u dumb or stupid)

"replying her msn conversation behind her back.."
gesh, it like once? and that you already knew it so it isn't really behind your back. Not like its any serious thing. (PLZZ its like sooooo something tat one shldnt do at all??? who the fuck goes arnd hlping ppl reply their msn conversations?? u dun even haf the least bit of human instincts to know wad is right from wrong?)

"Closing her msn windows.."
When i was helping you with your coding which i utterly regret now, i need to close all the chat windows becausing its cluttering up the taskbar which frustrate me especially when i need to focus with the coding, alt tabbing through EditPlus, JCreator all these..
(COMMON LAR EXCUSES! THE WTF IS THAT TIME WHERE I WAS MSGING MICH THEN U READ MY MSG ALOUD AND AFTER THAT SAY.. "AHHH SHUDDAP LA" THEN CLOSE MY WINDOW????? FOR FUN AR?!!? FOR JOKE?? FUCK U!)

"peeking at her passwords.."
WHoa whoa.. i remembered i told you last time when i was behind you i accidently saw you stupidly typed your password at the username field at msn login.. peeking at her password.. geesh.. (a bloody normal human being.... when someone is entering their passwords would naturally WITHOUT BEING TOLD turn their heads away!.... omg... u dun even know tat?)

"what are you trying to achieved.."
YOUR SMILE YOUR LAUGHTER!! the color in your life that you wanted to add in! Now i know why jacky got smack in his head for trying to be funny. (wAHAHAHA trying to act noble?? plz la u are doing all the freaking wrongs things)

Now the only thing which i really really do is cursing your relationship (fuck u!)which all this could be avoided if you just make your stand firmly like "look closely into my eye.. you can see im not joking about what im going to say.. please stop invading my privacy" but instead keep complaining to him what happened + spices you add behind me and i don't know why he make a fuss about it only until yesterday so please enlighten me on this. (TAT IS BECAUSE MICH DUN WAN ME TO CREATE ANY TROUBLE SO I TOLERATED UR BLOODY PIECE OF SHIT ASS JOKES FOR HALF A YEAR DAMMIT!)

Alright thanks i vented my frustration, and for the trouble ive caused i apologised and we got nothing to do with each other now.. and next time i see you and douglas in school unforunately next sem lets just walk away like we don't see each other. (Y THE FUCK MUST U VENT UR ANGER AND FRUSTRATION ON MICH! COME AND FIND ME LA! LETS VENT IT OUT! act as if we dont see each other? y cant we see each other and settle this instead??? wad are u trying to prove!)

Enough said.

(end of mails)

zzzzzzzz wtf?!?!?!? common la... the reasons y i very reply him or anything is because

no.1 even if i called... he wont dare to pick up.... bloody hell...
no2. smsing him would only waste my smses..... no point in talking to such ppl... *pukes blood*

the only left would be when school starts.. but... this kinda aqua zheng freakin waste my time and breath to talk to.... see how first ba... see my mood..... seriously... i nvr ever felt so pissed in my life be4.... NVR! he is one freaking prick that is making my blood boil so bad!

nvr ever so pissed off!!!!

2006-08-12T02:14:00.000+08:00

BY A PERSON I DUN EVEN REALLY KNOW!............................

he is a schoolmate of mine... called Allan.. and as well as baobei's colleague/teammate at their attachment company. this f***er here really pissed me off!

during their internship period.. he has been repeatedly insulting me, baobei and mine r/s and as well as harassing baobei at the office!!! i repeat... i dun even know him!! only hi and bye as i only know him by name and seen him in sch be4... i nvr ever did or said anything about him!!!

this is wad he did....

for me.. he insulted me by making jokes out of me.. like calling me names like 'white tiger'... saying that i keep copying the stuff tat he did for example, he likes to sing.. and says tat i copy him... he drive car i oso drive car.... i mean WTF?! ive been learning music since my sec. school days and i passed my driving test way long BEFORE HIM!... and the most recent one was... during a lunch with him, irene and their colleague.. they were discussing upon a topic: "Guys nowadays very niang(gayish) they like find girlfriend to cover up that they are niang"... then Allan said: ya lor! Douglas la.. dun u think he very niang? i think he and mich together is just to cover up that he is niang...

WTF?!?! ok nvm... small matter??? fine.... i eat it....

next....

he keeps saying tat me and baobei will not last... our r/s will not endure and go on.... and then? that she will be his... when baobei fought back against his statement.. he simply said... "in the future who knows? dun be too sure now".... wtf!?!? baobei and i got together by enduring alot of shit ok! our r/s did not started off smoothly like any other couples.. there was alot of obstacles.. alot of problems tat we both undergo together to be able to maintain our r/s at this level! who the F*** is he to condem and insult our r/s?!?!?

still small matter?!?!?!? fine... i ATE IT AS WELL......

more to come...

during their internship... Allan kept poking fun at baobei.... making comments tat im far more inferior to him.. and how smart he is... he even commented tat baobei and irene's work scope did not involve brains??? and his workscope is soo much harder then theirs and requires more brains and knowledge??? wtFF?!? they haf been working their ass off and this is wad u say?? u dun even know how to do their work la!!! next... he always peeks at baobei's msn conversations... he even replied for her while she was away!!!! WTF?!?! who does he think he is???? wad gives him the right to invade the privacy of others??? Guess wad... there was once when i was msn-ing baobei... he was sitted right beside her... her read all of our conversations and then he did his.. he said: "arrrrrr shut up la!" and he closed my window!!! WTF?!?!?! and the most infuriating thing is that he actually peeked at baobei's password!!! EH WHO DOES HE F**KING THINK HE IS??? F**KED UP LA!

Sometimes baobei requires his help.. he would move over to her desktop.... and wad? he would purposely try to use the mouse BUT! even noticing purposely touch baobei's hand...and he did this... MANY TIMES!.... baobei doesnt like ppl to talk behind her.. it feels awkward.. and he has to purposely make it more obvious and do it even more!!!

i tell u.... all this things tat he has done.. ive been tolerating them for close to HALF A YEAR ALREADY!!! WTF MAN...... NO MORE OF THIS SHIT FROM HIM!

i called him today... wanted to confront him and ask him wad does he wan to achieve from all this nonsense that he is doing....

i called him:
i said: is this allan ling?
he said: ya?
i said: WAD THE FUCK ARE U TRYING TO PROVE??!
he said: huh?
i said: WADDD THEEE FUCKKK AREEE UU TRYINGGG TOO PROVE??!?!?

!#$#$%^%&%^*

then afterwards.. my friend called him as well.. and the same thing happened... he hung up again... so i decided to sms him.... this are the messages... not altered or edited.... exactly how it was written and received...

I wrote:
"eh fucker dare to insult me and harass michelle behind my back, dare not answer my phone ah?! This is Douglas here! Lets settle this once and for all!"

"I know all the fucking things that u have been saying behind my back.. So wad the fuck do you wan now? i tolerated your shit so fucking long! Lets settle it now!"

He did not reply my smses.. but smsed michelle this:
"What is all this for?"

I wrote back to him:
"What for ask mich wad is this all about when u haf been repeatedly insulting me and my relationship with mich.. Peeking at mich's msn conversations.. Replying her msn conversations behind her back.. Closing her msn windows.. Peeking at her passwords.. She doesnt like ppl to talk closely behind her back and u purposely keep doing tat.. invading her privacy and all.. Jst wad the fuck are u trying to achieve? Dare to do dare not to own up? i white tiger? i niang? fucked up... u dun even dare talk to me on the phone bloody gu niang.. Go get yourself a life and stop being an irritant"

He finally replied me:
"Ah relax. All was nothing but joke. These was just to spice up your girl life in the company. I doubt i and she will ever have the chance to talk again anyway. What i want you say? Nothing but chill down and im sorry. Now if you're still angry which i know you are this question should be directed to you. What you want. Na i won't take your call."

i replied:
"I dun wish for any of these kind of 'jokes' anymore.. i seriously dun find it funny and i have tolerated those so called jokes for close to half a year and im really very pissed right now... Stop all this shit.. Or lets talk face to face if u have any comments to make"

He wrote:
"Haha did mich not tell you i am niang. There is some truth in it but there is something which you don't understand. Anyway you verge your and i apologise. Good night"

i stopped this conversation... wasting my time and breath on him.... at least i got the message across that i know of the insults tat he has been making and i dun wish for them to happen again!...

zzzzzzzzz ive nvr gotten so angry with anyone be4!! he is the FIRST!!!!!!!! he shld be honoured.. anywayz.. im off to bed.. wad a day....

That nostalgic feelin..

2006-08-10T04:57:00.000+08:00

its been soo long....

so long since ive ate at my grandparent's hse.....

so long since ive tasted ah gong's cookin....

ive had a long day's of work during NDP... after at i went down to my grandparents hse to have dinner =) its been very long since ive went down there or even met up with my grandparents... so very long..

during dinner i really really ate alot! but it wasnt because i was extremely hungry or anything.. it was more like... ive nvr eaten these home cooked food for a very long time... very very long time...

the taste of my ah gong's famous "Lu Ya" (duck) was sooooooooo good!!! i still rmb the times when i was still very young.. ah gong and ah ma would always save a drumstick for me... awwww that feeling.... so nostalgic....

i think its been really long since ive ate home cooked food tats y hahaha... but nontheless.. my grandparent's culinary skills are THE BEST!!! =)

*hope to be able to bring baobei over my grandparent's hse one day to taste their food!*

August 5!!!!! fireworks!!! sweetest nite ever!

2006-08-07T02:14:00.000+08:00

August the 5th is the sweetest and happiest nite ever since 2006's Valentines Day (the day Michelle and I got together officially).

Fireworks are one of the most beautiful pieces of art ever to be viewed in the sky.....

Baobei was so sweettttt~~~ she actually went to enroll for this newspaper lucky draw contest thingy and the prize was..... a first class view of the fireworks during the fireworks festival last sat on August 5th!!!!! and she won it!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeee (thx baobei for ur lovely arrangement!)

We had to be there at 7pm be4 the crowd starts building up at one fullerton where the firework festival is to be held...

and here are some of the pictures!

We went early to raffles place to have a drink and chill out first!

ta daaaaaaaaaaa the contest tickets tat baobei won for us!!! =)

At one fullerton... wads one of the most prominent thing????
THE MERLION!!!!!!

Heeee while waiting hard for the fireworks to start.... we decided to take some pictures!!!

ahhhh the lovely night view....

the love of baobei and i!! muackzzzzzzzzzzzzz

this picture is NOT EDITED or PHOTOSHOPPED we had totally no idea how it happened.. but it looked so cool haha

and.. there u go... the FIREWORKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lastly.... be4 the nite was over.. i presented to baobei.......

Giving this ring to baobei really means alot to me.... alot alot..... i hope to give baobei happiness.. i hope to share her burdens and sorrows.... i hope that together we can carve our a future tat belongs to ours! =) a future tat is full of happiness and joy!

Baobei i love u~~ muackzzzzzz

aishetieru

2006-08-05T01:27:00.000+08:00

had a long long long long chat with baobei last nite... cleared up afew stuff... managed to know wad i have been doing.. wad i tot i was doing but didnt... wad i tot i was trying to express but could not.... wad i tot was good for us but wasnt....

i was so shocked...

i really was............

when baobei said some stuff tat she feels how i felt and prioritised her... when to me.... she has always been first in my heart.... i didnt know she tot of me as this kinda person...

it hurts.....

it really does.......

after pouring out each of our hearts we finally got to know how each of us felt and wad we are thinking..... how we looked at this r/s of ours...

therefore right now we have reconciled and i believe thru this conversation.. our r/s have taken a step further!!! =)

*Problems and obstacles are not there to destroy a relationship... but thru overcoming them... it brings relationships to a greater height*

"baobei.. everything i said last nite... really are from the bottom of my heart... i really mean it.... i love u!"

Ive done it again...

2006-08-04T02:39:00.000+08:00

There u go.. ive done it again.. many many times.... baobei is already so mad at me liao.... but im still just as insensitive as be4....

fuck la... y am i still like this.. so insensitive.. so inconsiderate....................

whenever there is any planning needed to be done.. i jut cant plan a proper plan for baobei to help her be able to attend the event and as well as be answerable to her family....

screw myself....

......

2006-08-03T02:49:00.000+08:00

Sad.... just played 2 games of dota just now and lost... sigh*...... but thats pretty not wad im sad about... was on the phone with baobei and realised that.. im not gd enuff afterall... im still lacking that something to make me a better bf... i tot i roughly know how to be a gd bf le... but i guess its still not enuff...

This mth is a new beginning for me! i have lots of plans for the future and from today onwards im working hard for them! though today heard abt the 'news' from baobei.. alittle sad.. but~~ i will work hard!! i believe i will eventually reach the standards of baobei =)

Im working this friday again... gonna stand till ache T_T~~ BTW.. if anyone is interested... P.O.A at bugis deals with 'vintage' kinda clothings =) so if u r interested do come down to visit me! but.... no discount ar... i not full time staff T_T

ok.... im off to bed then...

baobei... regarding that matter i will really go and think hard about it... i will work hard to improve myself de.... nitez...

OmMgGg?!

2006-08-02T01:30:00.000+08:00

SIGH.... my tagboard got un-registered due to the lack of usage.. and ya its because i did not update my blog~~

The last time i blogged was like... July 3rd?!?! tat is like one mth ago la... omg... cobwebs everywhere in my blog liao.. time to do some updating!!! =)

for those of u who haf not watched this show yet.. plz go and watch it!! its a great hit! lots and lots of action~ punching, kicking and nuchaku-ing~~ hahaHAa for all u action movie lovers out there.. PLZ CATCH THIS MOVIE! ITS A MUST!

Baobei and i just caught this movie on the last sat~ both of us were really amazed but the moves that they executed in this movie! After that we headed down to CHIMES for dinner at this brazilian restaurant called "Carnivore" where they serve brazilian grilled food such as beef, lamb, chicken, pork sausages and others =) it was a lovely dinner.. it was a lovely night.. it really was~ heeee =X

Just starting working at P.O.A (People Of Asia) at Parco Bugis Junction.. $5/hr.. kinda dirt pay but... wtheck i needed to kill some time... too much time at home makes me go nutz... i really needed to do something to make me not feel wasted

I already haf my VIVA presentation marks! i was given on the spot by my supervisor and i had gotten a B+ grade!!!! =) so overall.. my supervisor said tat i would be able to attain a B grade for my in-house project =) wahaHaHAa no more worries for me!! Now must pray hard for baobei's grades as well.. she had some setbacks during her presentation due to her 2nd marker being a BITCH~ ive nvr seen a person sooooo rude before.. she didnt say that she is ending the presentation or anything and just walked out of the room like that!! and during the time where we where fixing some technical problems.. she just left the room! and we had to call her back after we settled the problem.. and she didnt even said anything.. just packed up and leave.. wtf man... must pray for baobei... dun worry k? everything will be fine de =)

After all these series of events over i can now finally do the stuff that i wan to do! i wanna read more books... wanna read more newspapers (nvr really had the habit to) i wanna learn more stuff as well! recently i sorta haf a slight interest in fashion design~ maybe i shall go read about them =)

Woa.. this is seriously a long piece of post? haha well... after so long u cant really blame me eh? k then.. im off to bed.. nitez~~ =)

a day at the arcade!

2006-07-03T01:13:00.000+08:00

haha its my first time at the arcade with baobei!! lolx its was fun! hahahhaa we played the bishi bashi, daytona, super mario racing game and..... A MEGA HUGE BIG Pick the sweets cum win a teddy bear game!

and this is wad we won..

For those of u who wans to get a glimpse of the teddy bear at we won u can go to baobei's blog

if the link is not working.. u can click on mich at my links on the right of the page =)

*insomnia..*

r/s...

2006-06-28T01:30:00.000+08:00

今天我的一位好朋友跟我说了他的感情问题。。。。
我跟他说：“两个人在一起就是要一起成长，一起长大。”

我总是觉得人是不可能完美地，所以我也不怎么觉得世上会有 "Dream Guy, Dream Gal" 这回事。。但是我觉得‘梦想的未来’是有可能地，只要两个人一起成长，一起长大就可以一起建造这个‘梦想的未来’。

现在的我正在喝着我的蜜糖水，想到感情就跟蜜糖水一样啊。。蜜糖和水是不会那么轻易的融合在一起的，就像情侣都开始会有摩擦一样。。它是需要时间地。。。但是！单靠时间是不会让它们融合在一起的。。它也需要你慢慢的搅和它才能融合在一起。。像爱情一样需要情侣之间用努力用爱再加于时间才行。

和我的朋友聊到。。那。。你爱她吗？

觉得。。。两个人能够从认识到成为情侣是一件很不容易的事。。
"If you were to struck a needle onto any spot on the earth's surface... and the heavens begin to rain grains of rice..... wad is the probability tat a single grain of rice would be struck onto the needle?.... that probability is the same as the probability it takes for two person who are complete strangers by birth to know each other.. and to be together as couples..."

所以。。如果你爱她/他的话。。。请你把握住。。因为这段感情真的。。得来不易。。。

working hard~

2006-06-20T10:35:00.000+08:00

lolx it seems that the last post of mine dates back to arnd 10 days ago?????? haha tts a veryy veryyy long time....

seen alot recently... seen someone (by the name of Gle**) puke like nvr be4... omg.... imagine urself puking 4-5 times.. i wonder wad was the bright yellow thing tat he puked out on his last puking session........... *sick* but well... the other guys haf their objective done alright lolx... all were trying to make him drunk.. and he SURE did! =) drunk... high... and digusting.. with all that... *gross stuff* all over the place..... *yuckz*

im at the library now.. rushing on the final fragments of my project... phew.. around 13 more days to go be4 the submission of the project!!! plus.. a 60page long report is to be done .. zzzzzzz *boring*... but after all this turmoil.. it would be BACK TO SCHOOL!!! CANT WAITTT

tired tired tired..... BUT! i had breakfast with baobei today at Macdonals in the morning!!!! =) quite a wonderful experience i would say~ hee~

sweetest post ive ever seen!

2006-06-08T13:35:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! guys check this out!

this is the sweetest thing ever!
proudly done by my most beloved baobei!!!

well then............ enjoy the clip! =)

part time job?

2006-06-02T01:52:00.000+08:00

hmm.. shld i work???

I have been asking myself this qns since yst... reason for working is... i felt like a bump, slacking around at home and doing nothing... unproductive.... (probably it was a feeling i had yst only... cause it was the most 'slackful' day since my IHP started)...

Another reason would be.. i love to shop..... and im like kinda thinking that.. if i really want to go shopping and buy labels... i feel that i should use my own earned money to buy them... instead of using my mum's or my given allowance on these clothes...

HOWEVER.... if i work it would meant less time.... so i wonder... is $$ > time or time > $$ ........ wad would be the best way out??... or shld i just stick to my life now... cause... i have dance and music lessons..... which would hinder my job schduele as well...

think think think...

anywayz... its only 1mth+ more to end my this current semester... and 1 last semester to go be4 i officially graduate from Ngee Ann Poly. (tat is if i sucessfully pass my modules^^).... so y not i just stick to how things are first... and finish up my school term?...

lOLxxx i guess... i shall take a step at a time ba... or maybe..... *thinks hard*...

baby sitting.....

2006-05-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

baby sitted my cousin today.... hahaaha it... wasnt a very good project though.. lolx!!!

at first.. he was happily playing with my PS2

then after awhile... he was crying for uncle.. cause he wans to go to woodlands to play with his "kor kor" !!! omg -.- ~~~~ i had to like calm him down and finally got him to watch some tv... as he was sooooo persistent in not going to take a nap

and at last.... after watching the tv for awhile he finally................ slpt*

haHaha but nonetheless he is very cute la... just kinda stubborn -.- ~~

sigh*... today was rather unproductive... stayed at home doing nutting.... zzz

Law of reciprocity

2006-05-28T01:10:00.000+08:00

Read this in a book called: Robert Kiyosaki's Rich Dad Poor Dad, retire young retire rich.

A quoted from Robert Kiyosaki's rich dad who taught him the values of reciprocity... giving first before thinking about receiving: " If you wanna receive a smile from others, be the one who smiles first....... If u wanna be loved, be the one who gives love........ And if u wanna be understood, be the first one who understands "

This quote from the book gave me lots to think about...

Hope that it would be meaningful to you too! =)

100th day SPECIAL!

2006-05-25T13:07:00.000+08:00

time seems to pass pretty fast.... and before u know it.. today, May 25th marks the no. 100th day that me and my baobei Michelle have been together ever since Feb 14th...

i wasnt able to create fireworks on that nite... only able to 'surprise' baobei with this..

Baobei made this FOR ME! and bought me the NECKLAcE!

so sweet! =)
i really really loved the strawberrys dipped in chocolate and frozen!!!

Hope that for the past 100 days Baobei have been happy being with me... and i hope that for the next 100... 1000.. 100000... 1000000000 days... both of us can grow in our r/s and that baobei can stay happy being wif me^^

很珍惜我们的每一分，每一秒！

hi hi hi hi!

2006-05-20T16:05:00.000+08:00

^^well i guess.. no one is probably viewing my blog anymore eh... -.- havnt been blogging in wks and days... sigh... due to my stupidity and *swayness* in destroying laptops after laptops... CAN U BELIEVE IT?! i destroyed my own laptop and my gf's laptop as well!! omg... ownage........

*sry baobei about ur laptop.. dui bu qi...... *

First time celebrating my baobei's bday! (as her bf*)

The CakkkeeEEeee

haHaa tried my very very best to create a surprise for her... booked a KTV room at cineleisure Kbox and had our friends hid in it first then i bring her in... and....... SURPRISE!! but... one major screw up -.- as i was driving her to cineleisure... 3 of our friends where strolling to cineleisure... right in front of my car..... GREAT! haHAHAa but it was a great day nonetheless =)

thx guys! for all the support and help on that even thank you thank you! i can nvr thank you enuff....

Eames and Baobei (Michelle) cutting the bday cake!

Two ppl sharing the same bday on the same day! kinda cool isnt it? lolx

After these mini-bday celebration we headed down to Eames's hse to grab some foodstuff and headed down to East Coast Park for BBQ!!!! well.... several mishaps happened along the way.. like... finding the way to east coast and stuff.. but it all turned out well =) haHAa

Ate and drank.. drank and ate... ..... ....... .......... .............................

The best part was.... I get to have some private special moments with baobei there at the seaside... really loved that feeling!!

kk.. think i better go do my work.... lotsa stuff to do.. and yea.. i got a new laptop!!!! which means i better work hard... or else... im screwed... cause i had to get my mum purchase me a new laptop.... and guess wad... for no reason at all... i got myself a new handphone!!! HaAHAHAHAHa my uncle had some voucher thingy.. which he exchanged for this new handphone and wanted to pass it to my mum... BUT! she DUNNO HOW TO USE! YAY! HAHaha so ya... im the proud new owner of this Sony Ericsson K750i =)

kk i better go mug cYA!

backk att lasttttt

2006-05-18T02:00:00.000+08:00

Im finally back online!! havnt been blogging in donkey years.... sigh.... spoiled my laptop... spoiled my baobei's laptop.... Zzzzzzz wth.....

lots of happened lately... like my mum had gotten married.... i celebrated my baobei's bday for the first time since we r together...... soo many sooooo many things! hahaHA cant wait to blog them down... but not now ba.. kinda late... perharps tml when i haf time in school =)

immmmmmmmmm bacCccccccccKKKKKKKKKKKKkkkkkkk

self re-collection

2006-05-05T02:38:00.000+08:00

feelin pretty messed up.......

but dun be mistaken that its a r/s prob.. cause... if there is one thing if im grateful for.. it would be having michelle baobei as a gf....

lots of things i wanna do... lots of stuff i HAVE to do.... too many temptations... too weak inside of me... to get down to the things which i wanna accomplish and get them done....

my mum is getting married later today^^.... shes finally moving on to the 2nd chapter of her life.. i hope i can do so too.... move outta of my current lousy self... nid to learn discipline... determination.... will-power....

***work hard for wad u wan... work hard for ur dreams..... work hard for ur future..... the future is ur's to mould..... the heavens pay those who are dilligent.... everything happens for a reason...... work hard!.. ***

baobei and me!

2006-05-03T20:11:00.000+08:00

just wanna share something which i treasure very muchhHHH!!!

me and my baobei!!!

busy period...

2006-05-03T01:49:00.000+08:00

ha... sry for the late post? havnt been blogging frequently... haha well... no much ppl reading too.. anywayz... recently bought a book by Robert Kiyosaki.. his fifth book called "Retire Young, Retire Rich".

Before reading this book, ive read his first book called "Rich Dad, Poor Dad".... all these stories and theories written by Robert Kiyosaki made me motivated to look forward onto the future where after graduating from Ngee Ann Poly (hopefully T_T) ... where we step into our working lifes.....

"You work today for tomorrow's future".. - from Robert Kiyosaki

Right now theres my in-house project... after this... its gonna be a series of stuff which i have to work on to improve myself.......

Nid to grow up more... mature more and grow stronger...

*in order to protect someone... u must first have the ability and capacity to do so......*- by me!^^

In-house project...

2006-05-01T13:30:00.000+08:00

to all those out there doing in-house projects.... i just wanna say... may god bless ur soul..... amen*

sigh...

2006-04-29T14:06:00.000+08:00

lots of PROBLEMS!

My lappy not advisable to upgrade to Windows XP Professional Edition... because if i did that the utility programs will not be able to function... took my mum's desktop to my room to use for my project... then had lots of issues too..

Now... borrowed baobei's laptop to use for my project period... but then... she wont be able to go online at home... unless she uses her desktop..... *guilty*..... deprived baobei of her computer...

I will finish the project asap!!! no worries.... if worst come to worst.... i hafta do a desperate move liao.. zzzzzzzzzzz haix.... project sux.... in-house project stinkz......

YAY! its back!

2006-04-27T16:30:00.000+08:00

OMG! guess y i havnt been online.. and havnt blogged for so long... yea... my laptop WAS DOWN!!! T_T~~~~ zzzZZzz***

It was down for like 4 days... untill i went to school and shaun helped me fixed it... then when it got home.. it was back to its previous state again..... i did a reformat... and yea... to keep the story short... i screwed up the OS of my laptop and had to send it to the service centre today.... it was fixed in just 1hr though!! =) great service from Acer^^..

Well.... lots and lots of stuff which i haf to do now... my project especially.... i asked the Acer personnel again if my laptop can be upgraded to professional edition... and they said that yes it is possible... so.... im gonna give it a try again.... in any case... i can just do a system recovery on my laptop eh... anywayz i havnt installed my softwares and my files yet...

wish me good luck!!! im rebuilding back my laptop again!

Refocused!!

2006-04-17T02:52:00.000+08:00

Today just before my last keyboard lesson started i met my tcher at the downstairs cafe... sat down and spoked with him for awhile... he said that he heard abt me from some of his friends (ppl who used to teach me some music stuff) .. and inquired y i like kind of music school hopped here and there... and oso.. y did i wanna stop learning keyboards over at echo music?

Well in all... i attended 3 music schools haHaa alot??? yea... quite.... i mean who hops like me?? lolx well... they each had a reason y i attended and y i quitted from there...

First one... Guiding Stars... the first ever ever ever music school i attended when i was i think.... sec4?? when i was around 15-16 yrs old... 2001... (arnd there la.. cant rmb the exact dates..) Had lots of memories there... happy, sad and angry ones too... When i was in GS (Guiding Stars for short) i had always wanted to take up vocal lessons instead of keyboards.. BUT!! because i was so super duper introvert and inconfident of myself (at that time) i chose keyboard composing instead.. thinking to myself that learning keyboard composing is also part of music... and since i felt that i could nvr sing.. so y not go into that field instead??? (self denial...........)

Took keyboard composing lessons there for about 1yr?? Then cause between classrooms there is a glass window inbetween.. enableing students from both sides to view each other havin their classes... from there... i saw how vocal classes are being held and thus futhur increased my desire to learn vocals... and then i thought... "to hell with how i sound... i may sux in singing but as long as im happy and i do wad i really wanna do its more then enuff!"

From then on.. i began having lessons at GS... (this may be a long story... realised i have alot to write about the past...)

Underwent double classes of both keyboard composing and vocals... it was great! met new friends... had new exposures.... did wad i always felt most happy doing... singing!!

after spending about 2yrs? (cant rmb the actual dates..) i begin to realise that there is something wrong with that particular music school... Guiding Stars... or rather.. the director of the music school....

Theres too much to talk about that director guy.... that if i were to really write it all down in this post.. it would be i think a 10,000 word essay.... but ya... to cut things short... basically he is a low-life cheapo who lies about every single dam thing to get things done in his way and a VERY good one at it too!!!!! And ya... im the SUPER DUMB one to believe his shit for 2yrs.... (bite me.....)

So ya... i moved on to another music school after being cheated for soooo long.....

2nd one.... Lee Wei Song School Of Music... in short LWSSOM.... i went there for... COMPOSING! hahaha... not vocals... y?!?! same reason.... inferior complexity.... felt that i shldnt waste so much youth and money on something which i felt i could nvr excel.... therefore i cheated myself again and went to enroll for keyboard composing... after not even 2mths... i realised... that i dun feel happy about it at all.... i mean... i really liked to sing alot!.... though i sound bad.. but... yea... i really liked it alot.... and this keyboard composing thing aint cheap there... so yea... i left......

After that... it was kinda a blank phrase for me... didnt do anything about my music life... till my friend recommended this guy called Zheng Quan to me... a pro vocalist and private tcher in vocals =) which yea i had lessons with him... infact... just one?!??? Because after learning from him that one lesson i kinda got back my motivation again to learn vocals and like to hell with all those who thinks i sound bad.. so wad?!? im just gonna pursue my dreams and passion... do wad i like best and tats it!.. and hence i felt that it would be better if i went to a proper school... cause there would be more exposure... able to meet more ppl and all.... and yea i went back to LWSSOM....

(u guys must be thinkin wad the heck is wrong wif me rite??? well yea... had lots of ups and downs inside me then... depressed with wad im doing to myself.... hence... all this sudden/wierd decisions...)

After 3-5mths of vocal lessons at LWSSOM i felt that i aint learning much there... and yea its expensive due to the branding of the school... Lee Wei Song.. haikz~ cause before this i had learnt my vocals from several ppl.. and thru comparison i realised.. i aint improving nor learning new things from LWSSOM... BUT i havnt changed schools due to tat yet!.. cause i was in a mental struggle as i promised my dad that i wanted to completed at least a year's worth of vocals studies over at LWSSOM... and now this.... if i were to continue... would be prove that i held on and accomplished something? or is changing school enableing me to save $$ as it would be cheaper and i would learn more from there?!?!??! really didnt know wad to do... at a lost...

I decided to learn keyboard from outside though... because i felt that i didnt wanna waste the humble keyboard skills of mine.. thats y i went to Echo-Music to learn keyboards there... affordable price and a very good tcher! =)

Then i begin inquiring about the vocal lessons and the vocal tcher over at Echo-Music asking how is it like.. the course fees... the syllabus covered... the tcher's skills and all.... Chris.. the CEO of Echo-Music school haf been teaching vocals for 12yrs! and he even gave me some tips on vocals just like tat!! Felt that the way they teach there is rather good.. and it would enable me to save $50 a mth as it is tat much cheaper!! so yea.. i decided to change school.....

"A school with branding definately has its advantageous.. more exposures.. more events more brand.... but it doesnt ensure u that the teachings there are as good compared to its brand... if a person has wad it takes... no matter where he goes to... he would be offered that opportunity.. therefore its wad i haf in my strength thats impt... not the school...." thats wad i told myself and moved on to my final and current music school...

The final one Echo-Music!!!!! first of all sry guys... i did stopped my keyboard lesson over at Echo-Music because i wanted to save cost... and felt that... ive aquired lots of new stuff over there for keyboards... and its more like up to me to practise them.... so yea i decided to own time own target keyboards and focus on my vocals instead....

Felt rather lost recently cause i felt that the more i sing the worst i sound...

Everything which ive learnt in the past and my own experiences enabled me to gather this style of my own.. which i felt confident as i knew wad i could do... my strength my weaknesses... but this old teachings + my own style + new teachings is making me messed up... and hence i feel kinda wierd.. dunno wad the heck am i singing...

Then i had a chat with my baobei michelle.. who told me about passion and shared her views with me... and now... its gonna be a focused me on my passion... singing!!!! Entering the army soon... i would be wasting time if i still dun settle down... this time its all out.... full blown me on singing! just hope that i can improve and have a performance which ppl would regconize me as a person who can sing.... tts all............. just wanna sing.........

Yep^^ this is a "brief" story of how i got to where i am now...

Baobei still feeling unwell??? sigh... really worried for u.... hope u get well soon.. take care k?.... i will show u the fruits of my labour! show u a focused and settled me... show u my passion! thx for givin me ur support and motivation.. love ya lots... thx.....

Passion..

2006-04-16T15:17:00.000+08:00

Was out "gai gai-ing" with baobei yst =) settled with Pizza hut for dinner.. had a reallllll wonderful time with my baobei^^ then we started talking about passion... passion for the things u love and wanna pursue... in my case.... typically.... music.......

I asked baobei wad exactly is passion?? i mean... i haf a huge variety of interest and love for lotsa stuff.... so wad exactly is passion?

Baobei said: "when u haf passion for that certain thing u will wanna find out more about it without anyone forcing u to do so... u would just wan to know more about that certain subject by urself"

I guess wad baobei said is rite.... from today ive gotta buck up!!!!!!!

baobei not feelin well.... "xin teng"... hope she gets well soon.........

baobei take care ok? drink more water!!

feelin lost...

2006-04-13T04:48:00.000+08:00

its 4.45am right now... i shld haf been in bed since 3.15.... but i just cant get slp...

feelin lost*....

havnt been doing crap for my in-house project.... told baobei a couple of wks ago that its time for me to do something about it and to work hard.. but.... wad the hell had i done in the past few days???? crap....

though i really did do a tutorial on building a web site with flash.. but it didnt turn out very well.. and it kinda ended there...

sorry baobei... didnt do wad i said i would do...

what rights do i have now to say that im feelin stress eh.... cause its all due to my self-laziness that caught me up in this mess...

its gonna be 5am soon in another couple of mins... feel like gettin help from Eames or Dylan in the morning to hlp me login for attendence... feel like skipping school today and think through wad i really wanna do for my in-house project... the concepts and all.....

another reason for my "depression" is cause... my project which i came up with... doesnt seem to be strong enuff for me to actually score... its gonna be a 25 credits project and my entire semester would be solely dependent on the outcome of my project.... a plain simple flash web-site... how am i gonna score... i wonder....

add in more elements and stuff??? ...ha... and how do i go arnd doin that???...

its april 13 now.. guess its no turning back and changing my proposal eh... well... thats the strong mindset which i set for myself 30mins ago while tossin and turnin in bed thinking about it....

feelin real lost... i mean... y cant i just simply set heart onto wad i know i must do.... and always be astray from the objectives.... too many temptations? nah... its me letting all this temptations eat me up....

help...

priorities VS games! lolx

2006-04-12T02:47:00.000+08:00

haHaa think i really really nid to get down to work liao... stuck at my in-house project... basically ive been slacking and slacking ha...

THIS TIME IM DETERMINE TO COMPLETE A BASIC FUNCTIONAL WEBSITE BY THIS MONTH OF APRIL!

its already the 12th ... roughly 18 days to complete the basic website in flash....

nid to really settle down and set the project underway...

wish me luck!!!!

(lots of stuff may be happening during this time.. lets stay strong together and break thru all this obstacles! love ya baobei...)

chicken wing incident!!

2006-04-09T15:42:00.000+08:00

OMG!! in my wildest dreams i never even for once dream that i would come across a scenario where an uncle fights over chicken wings with us!....

This is wad happened.....

My friends and I was having our dinner at old changi airport hawker centre. At first we were sitted at table 85 and afterwards we went arnd ordering our food and ya... of course... told the stall owners to be sent to table 85.

Then suddenly we realised that there is a bigger table just beside us which just got cleared up and hence we moved over.. i mean... wad could go wrong right? its just beside the initial table eh.....

What happened was.. my friend ordered 8 chicken wings and the new occupants which i would label as.... chicken wing stealer uncle..... also ordered chicken wings BUT! theirs were only 4!!!!! Another point to note.. all this chicken wings are to be paid before hand!!

then here comes the delicious chicken wings... the store worker sent it to table 85... right to the chicken wing stealer.... so we were like eh?! is that ours? and we went to re-confirm with that chicken wing stealer.... he said tat they bought chicken wings too and asked us to get the owner to come down... BUT HE DIDNT SAY THAT HE ONLY ORDERED 4 WINGS! WHEN IT OBVIOUSLY HAD MORE THEN 4 ON THAT DAM PLATE!!!!

Then yea... the person told my friend that he only ordered 4... so my friend came back tellin that chicken wing stealer that he only ordered 4... whereas we ordered 8 and hence that plate of wings is OURS!! DAMMIT!

But he still insisted that we get the owner to come down.... he had that dun wan to talk to us kinda look... we were soooo osooooo DAMMm PisSsEd!! That my friend said it in his face... "GIAN PENG!"... he heard it and then act big act "gangster" -.-~~ (dude.. its 2006 already.... gangsterism not trendy liao)

so yea.. the store owner came down.. said some stuff to make that guy happy and yea... we got that plate of wings...

Afterwards... (gonna cut the story short.. im kinda late for class soon) that chicken wing stealer called his friends to like come down to the hawker centre or something.... (WAD THE HECK?! TO FIGHT FOR HIS PRIDE OVER 8 PIECES OF CHICKEN WINGS?!) but yea... we ate till we were soooooooooo bloated.... talked and chatted over our meal... and... no one or rather... nutting seemed to happened... and we just drove off to our next destination....

DUMB RITE!!!

if u ever go to old changi airport hawker centre be sure to spot a uncle who LOVES TO SHAKES HIS LEGS! smoke his cigarettes and stare at ppl while they eat.. i think he is rather bald infront.... and has REAL BAD fashion taste... wears stuff which makes him look "thai" (all that tribal kinda stuff) and has a wife and a daughter which after observation is deemed to be a "china" wife..... if u see this guy.... shun him plz.. hes a nuisance....

wishlist..

2006-04-08T02:26:00.000+08:00

hmmmmmm ..... really feel like buying stuff, goin shopping and all hahaHA but yea.. im broke T_T.... currently on the wishlist..

[= WishList =]
Computer Speakers (which i should be gettin real real soon)

External HDD (considering.. as there are stuff which i would love to have a backup of...)

MP3 player?? (Mainly cause my IPOD is real bulky and sometimes i just wanna listen to music as i go out... wont be wise to carry a bag just to cater for a mp3 player eh..)

Clothes???????????????????? (hHAaha was thinking lately... cause there might be a chance for me to perform at cineleisure... maybe each time im able to grab hold of a chance to do performances i go shopping for one piece of tee or something? as a indication for hardwork payoff?? lolx.. and yea.. in my context in would be BAPE tees =) )

hAHa haix.. but this wishlist... dun think it will ever be completed ba... not to mention the HK trip which i might be goin during end of June...

Right now.. im hacing a MASSIVE skin peelin action!!! AT LAST!!! after 2-3 tormented days of having 2nd degree burns on my shoulder... (i swear it sucked) .. yea... finally the pain sub-sided and the skin is starting to peel off.. but well.. its itching like HELL!!!!!!!!! But i supposed its also a sign that after all this peeling i will be back to normal again =)

"忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空"

touched...

2006-04-05T04:30:00.000+08:00

Was playing DOTA with Eames earlier just now, but thats not the reason to why i felt so touched... after the game i alt+tabbed and saw a msn window left by my baobei (michelle).... and after reading the contents in it, all i did was.... smiled to myself...

Special thx to Diana for the extra "advice" given from her to baobei, thx^^.

In a r/s many obstacles would surface at any time, be it fast or slow... but the main thing about all this obstacles is that they are trials and tests for 2 person to get pass them and develope a stronger r/s and not to cause the downfall of the r/s....

to Baobei:
"If anything happens lets face it together! i will always be there for u.... all u nid to know is that if u wan to find me, i will surely appear before u..... lets work hard together... lets strive together....

miss u lotz too^^ MuAckZz!! (shy)"

To everyone out there.... dreams and miracles will happen as long as u believe... just simply believe.... believe that happiness will be bestowed upon u.... believe that the very fairytale within u will become a reality...

Fight for it! fight for ur believes... ur happiness.... ur love ones.... urself............ for a heart without the fighting spirit is just an empty soul....

cheers,
hope u all out there be able to seek ur happiness.. and after its found... hold onto it with all ur might.... ^^~

Sentosa outing!!

2006-04-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

Sentosa class outing on sat was so totally fun!! great weather, games and food!!! but... im also totally burnt.... ZZZzzzz stupid sun... but anywayz.. it was a very very very enjoyable day. Had great fun with my friends and of course, with my baobei as well^^

pix taken with baobei =)

eames acting wierd lolx

Dajun

group pix!

a nice feast after a long day =)

to my baobei..

2006-04-01T02:45:00.000+08:00

在这一夜。。我许下了诺言。。。要给与我的宝贝永远的幸福。。。永远的快乐。。。

*宝贝我爱你^^

Flash...

2006-03-31T00:43:00.000+08:00

haHaa guess wad book did i buy today at kinokuniya?!?!??!!

"Visual QuickProject to Creating a Web Site with Flash 8"

HahaHaahA OMGGGG!!! but its a pretty ez book to follow though.. and i think it would be good for my IHP project... march has ended... i think its really time to start doin my project.... haix... STRESS.... think i might flunk this... help!!! T_T

sudden emotions...

2006-03-30T02:36:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder y ppl feel emotional at times when things are going great for them.. just this small tingling feeling inside ur heart... where u cant explain its reason for the cause of this emotions.... emotional insecurity? maybe... i wonder....

well thats the unexplainable feelin that im feelin rite now..

maybe its cause i take senseless passing by comments personnally without knowing y?.. i dunno.... wads wrong?... argh.... wad the heck am i whinning about... sigh* think i should maybe change the title of this blog entry to Doug's whinning over nonsense..

gonna slp now.. nitez..

hmmm..

2006-03-25T08:30:00.000+08:00

Had my first day of work on wed... went there at 11am and had a briefing for about an hour.. slacked abit, ate some lunch then we started work around 12.30 - 6pm and earned about $55 haha not too bad eh =)

BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT STUPID PINK COLORED POLO TEE GUY!! (heard that he is gay) made me wait there like a idiot for nutting.... cause i was supposed to do the project at nite shift too... waited for the briefing for the 2nd project at 6 till 7.30... then he came over and say.. oh~ no more for today... u can go back already.... GRrRr324#!%#

but anywayz... the earnings was not too bad so its ok~ =)

gonna go for my 3rd dance class soon!!! (hiphop) haha cant wait lolx!!! think im starting to get the hang of it now =) just that i hafta admit that the warm up is rather hard to catch lolxxxxxx

kk g2g~!!! cIAOzzZ!!!

great day!

2006-03-22T18:22:00.000+08:00

hmm gonna start my first day of work tml!!!! ar 11am... gonna meet Duane before going to the workplace.. (which i dun even know where) ahaha.. its a telemarketing thingy.... where we do on phone surveys at the office.. seems like its paying ppl quite well for it so... hope i managed to cope with it! =)

today is SooOOoO SPECIAL!!! me and Baobei today cooked dinner ourselves haAHa "xin fu" ~~

looks good? tastes great as well!!!!! hahaHA wonder if this is considered "jia chang bian fan" lolx ... but well... the main thing was the process of whipping up all this dishes with Baobei =) (incase u dunno who tat is... baobei = mich)

love ya lotz baobei!!!! =)

earlier today i said that i would post the screen shots of my dota game today rite?! here u go~~

haHAaa well... all i can say is that.. today.. is a veryyy vERYyy special day for me!

3T08 blog?!

2006-03-22T06:14:00.000+08:00

aHAa was in school today for in-house project and noticed that Ron created a "Webbie" for our class (in blog form) lolx..... seriously... quite ugly HAhahAHA u nid more work on it dude lolXXxx!!!!!!!!!

Had a game of DOTA today in class (as usual).... and we WON!!! AT LAST!! OMG!!! have been on a losing streak lately.... might post the screen shot up later today =)

and well... now... its to working on my IHP....

OMG!

2006-03-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

OMG.. just had a game of warcraft3 with Eames... was about to slp when i suddenly had this one thought..... IHP (In-House Project) !!!!!

I seriously think tat im sooo sooooo darn screwed this time.... i mean think about it... its already march 20th... and our project dateline is at end of may??? meaning... 2mths and 10days more kinda thing to complete the darn project?!? which i havnt even started crap on??.... im doomed... so dead... so pawned...

how how how how how.... i know tat i haf myself to blame for slacking my ass off but... ouch~.. this sad truth really hurts...

im... damn.......

slpless...

2006-03-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

cant seem to get to slp...
each time i close my eyes.. my heart feels so heavy... so heavy...
sorry...

knowing your feelings for me yet i didnt reciprocate it with the equal amount of love which u shld have been given... all i know is to say... but yet fail to show it with my actions...

u have been givin me time and chances over and over again in wishing that i would learn of this... and to eventually grow in knowing how to treat u and this r/s better... thank you... yet... sorry again.. cause... im still not able to do so...

am i taking this all for granted? that all this which is seemingly so good so far infront of my eyes that i feel nothing would possibly go wrong and hence just take things as the way it is? sorry... i didnt think deep enuff... just too insensitive....

but u know... i really do wanna cherish and give u all the love which i can give to u...

dont know how? maybe....
wrong form of expression? maybe........
overly confident? maybe......

feeling lousy... very lousy.... very very low....

but thanks for letting me know of this (after finally trying ways and means to get it out from ur mouth) of all this faults of mine... dun keep them to urself k?... i dun wan u to suppress ur feelings because of me.... by knowing wad ive been doing... and wad i shld haf but didnt do... i will learn and improve....... cause... i really wan our r/s to grow and nurture... really wan it to go on and on....

sorry.... i really dunno how to relate and express this feeling in me right now... it is so strong... so deep tat i cant express them with words... just... sorry....

having the gal whom i so much so wanna give her everything that i could... to feel this way... ..... .....

sorry...
love u lots... i really do....

thank you for still believeing in me... thank you for still loving me..... thank you for all that u haf done for me.... ur caring-ness... ur self-sacrifices for me... u being sensitive towards my feelings, thoughts and well-being.... i have so much to thank and be appreciated for.... yet i.... havnt once repaid them to u by showing that equal amount of love which u have bestowed upon me....

i WILL grow up.... i WILL mature fast..... because i dun wish to lose u.... sorry....

sorry...

sorry...

Pachelbel Canon

2006-03-14T10:46:00.000+08:00

Yo~~ For all u Pachelbel Canon Lovers out there... Check THIS OUT!

HahahaHa Insane?? lOLxx cool Rock Version of the tradition classical style of Pachelbel Canon eh =)

Currently dam bored in school.. zzZZz feel cheated coming to school for nuttin.. cause its an own time own target kinda thing... nuttin much to do YET theres actually alot to be done...

well then.. gotta get back to my work* =X ciao~

BAPE OUTING!

2006-03-13T20:30:00.000+08:00

omg.... this is NUTZ!!! CHECK THIS OUT

hAHaa a total BAPE outting!! 4 of us lolx just today (13th March) were crusing around orchard area in our gears of BAPE haHAaaha! wasnt there in the beginning when they started crusing at far east.. heard tat it attracted quite an attention though~

*****
if im not wrong it should be as follows:-
(from left to right)
BAPE Red Camo Tee: $350
BAPE Purple Camo Long Sleeve BLING Tee (with diamonds): $450
Olive Camo Cap: $179 + Baby Milo Tee: $150?
BAPE Multi Camo Faded Sweat: $399
and~ the red and purple camo guys each are wearing Chomper shoes at $400 per pair...
*****

...... G O D L I K E........

seriously... it was kinda fierce.... but well.. everything is cool =)

played acouple of DOTA games today! er... not too bad too haha

Usar Warrior:

Venomancer:

Went to leftfoot and tried getting a job there today! hopefully i get it hahaha~ ciaoz~

Food For Thought!

2006-03-12T20:30:00.000+08:00

Thought no.1
Maturity~

Maturity is something which can be measured against the unit of age. A person only becomes matured when he/she undergoes a trial/lesson and absorbs the underlaying meaning to that certian lesson, then will she grow and mature.

Thought no.2
Fate and Destiny~

Fate and Destiny (yuan fen) is like sticking a needle onto the earth's surface. When the heavens begin to pour grains of rice onto the earth's surface, what is the probability that a single grain would be stuck onto that needle?

Ans: the same probability as 2 person getting to meet each another on this planet earth.

Thought no.3
Fears and Barriers~

Sometimes people think alot before they act, which is good! But... too many atimes this becomes a barrier/fear which the person creates for he himself to move on forward. Too many what ifs creates delusions.

hmmm seroiusly got no idea y i post this... but... its just a food for thought by me so... just maybe some comments on what i feel about stuff~ ciaoz~

Jobless people on the rise!!

2006-03-11T08:30:00.000+08:00

sigh*.. have been trying to find a job lately.. so far i signed up for 2 job agencies and called up to a sales retail advert. which i saw in the news paper... but still no avail. sigh*.. guess i hafta wait till i get a notice.. gonna buy the straits times tomorrow though as said by Dylan that on Saturdays there would be more Ads. available for job hunting.. hopefully so~

just yesterday while walking down to the MRT to go to school i saw THIS!

awww cool!! haHAaaha exactly the same car as in Initial D!!! Toyota TRUENO AE86!!

upon reaching school i straightaway went to check out my dream car... BUT! ITS SOLD!!!!!!!!! used to have it on SgCarMart.. but now ITS GONE~~ my Mazda RX-7... haix..

well... this picture of the RX-7 is modified.. as can be seen by the doors... but still awwwww... just a dream... T_T~

well then.. my dance class is gonna start soon!!!! wonder how will it turn out lolx

You Got Served~

2006-03-09T19:31:00.000+08:00

this friday is gonna be my first day of HipHop class!!! cant wait....

watched this cool show call "You Got Served" omggg the dance inside is... like.. er... godlike?! hahaHA well... its been long since i last tried hiphop.. kinda scared that when i go for class this friday.. i would move like a stick man...

dance.. music... both are passions of mine.. hope i can do something about them with this minimal talent in me... sigh*

gonna have IHP again later... zz dunno do wad this time.. yst already played dota soooo many times in class... can vomit liao lolxxx hope i get to start my IHP somehow... still slacking arnd..~~

but well... DANCE THIS FRIDAY! cant WAIT! and hopefully mich can come too~...

*yawnz* its late..~ ciaoz~.....

steamboat and KTV!

2006-03-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

haha had lots of happening stuff today!

meet up with out fellow classmates for steamboat at bugis area near "Pek Sia Street" (think its spelt this way...) a restaurent called "Parklane Deli *something*" lolxxxx the food there was GREAT!! ate till we were like all totally maxed out~

the lady boss so totally cool too! hahaaha from her tone, expression and the way she treats us.... i would say tat she has been around in this "Jiang Hu" for many years hahaha shes a heroine kinda figuare man~ gave us discounts... that kinda smack the chest and say that nothing is a problem~ we need wad they would be able to provide what we needed hahaha

***
Park Deli Food Centre (i think its like that.. the first 2 words are confirm correct =X)

$13.80 nett per head!!
Food = Free Flow!
Drinks = $2 per drink!
***

rating = 8.5/10 !!! reason for the deduction of 1.5 marks is due to the drinks.. kindaaaa steep hmmm....

After that we went over to partyworld for KTV!!! but.... Ron.... couldnt make it~ due to some factors.. haix...... ..... ... ..... ..... well... cant say tat he exactly flew our aeroplane =X but.. wasted.....

sang for abit... then most of them all KO~~ knock out~~ BUT!! the cool thing was!! DAN SUNG!!!!!!!!!!! WOooohhooOoooOoOOOooo being able to hear him sing was seroiusly worth it hahahaHAa at LAStTTt!! but.... Dylan... sigh*... maybe next time ba~~ =) and DaJun... u seroiusly was a cool sport but... just tat u cant read chinese hahahaHA but it was fun though lolxxx hearing u sing several lines of chinese pop songs =)

hmmmm today onwards ppl in IP... shall go onto they IP life... ppl like us... shall go onto our slack IHP life.... zzz dun think we would be able to meet up like this anymore... today was a great meetup though =)

best to all ya endeavours!!!!!!!! stay cool and funky guys!!!!!!!

DANCE DANCE DANCE

2006-03-05T08:42:00.000+08:00

wohoooo gonna learn dance next WKK!!! hahaha gonna enroll into DanceArts =) with my friends and hopefully... mich too =)

this is one of the motivation!!! although its break dance but still ... COOL!! wanna learn popping too lolxxx so many things i wanna learn and do~~ well then... ive gotta buy my stuff for dance first.. need some appropriate wear =)

motivational clip*

enJOY!!!

Liberty and Freedom!!!!

2006-03-04T05:16:00.000+08:00

HOhohoHOho WE ARE LIBERATED AT LAST!!!! exams no more! slpless & stressful nitez no more!!

These few days.. having been slping very well due to the papers... although i wont say tat ive done well for most of them but... im just glad that its.... O-V-E-R ~!! But well... gonna start In-House Project soon... but its ok~ got lotsa fellow friends in it together =) so not too bad~ starting sch term again next tues.. (fast eh... zzz) but well.. its only gonna be twice a wk kinda thing so its gonna be a great sem for us? =)

Right after the exams mich and I went for a movie with my friends.. "Final Destination 3" well.. I would say that its a movie which.. aint very right to watch just right after ur exams -.-~~ i mean... who the heck in the right mind would wanna watch a movie showing the different ways a person could possibly die after gaining ur first moments of liberation.... well.. the movie was practically about how u can actually die in... verryyyy vERryy "kua zhang" methods lolx.. story plot wise... hmm... i would say its so-so cause ya... basically u r just waiting to see how the next one dies lolxx

Well... anywayz... its time to look for a job... thinking of ways to do so.... newspaper??? nah... doubt they give good jobs lolx maybe... recruit express? haha

Oh!!!! and im gonna start my first hiphop dance lesson next wk!!!! haHaa its gonna be a fun and fulfilling sem for me =)

FINAL SHOWDOWN

2006-03-01T20:07:00.000+08:00

woooohooooooooo!!! after tml! after TML!!! im FREEEEeeeEee

haha tml is gonna be the last paper for most of us! BUT... it is also the hardest of the 4... sigh.... no mood to study.. have been losing slp for the past 3 papers.. right now... no mood... no strength left for the last paper = WIRELESS TECH~

have been craving to play Dota recently lolxXx!! played just 1-2 games with Eames yesterday night though before our paper hahaha couldnt take it anymore =X and... I CAN FINALLY CREATE GAME!!

dope dope dope dope dope dopeeeeeeee ahahaahHAaha immediately got my friend's help (sliber) on getting the banlist and other useful programs for being a host on Wc3 =)

haix all this talk about games... makes me wanna play again zzzzzz.... well then... finish the last paper and tats it! no more slpless nites!! no more worrying about the paper tml!! AND!!! looking forward to IHP (in-house project) life!!! hhaAHAa 2days a week of sch?? dopeeee~~

CANT WAIT!

bad bad bad....

2006-03-01T15:33:00.000+08:00

just finished my semis.... did REAL BAD... basically, i forgot lyrics for about half the song zzzzz.

starting of the song i did pretty well with the verse i would say, BUT! as i approached the first chorus, ALL IS WELL!!! BUTTTTT HERE COMESS!!! the 2nd chorus screwed up like hell!!! then i wanted to try and make a comeback with the remaining verses and chorus but... the more i try, the more it screws up....

now.. im back home. Didnt actually wait for the whole competition to end before coming back, NOT that i couldnt be bothered but.. cause i think its better if i come back home to study instead....

so well... i think tats the end of my competition and now.. its time to hit the books for the remaining papers!

time to EAT ALL THE STUFF IN MY WISHLIST WAHAHAHAHA

Day of SEMI FINALS!!!

2006-03-01T08:55:00.000+08:00

well now... its gonna start soon! in aprox.. 2hrs time!??!?! feelings now... blur.... tired.... hungry....

condition now is... 'bad'..... am i able to really properly sing later??? unsure... havnt tried... dare not try... tried speaking in a louder volume today and already i can feel some strains... ha...

like i promised to that 'special someone' i will do my best to not haf regrets for todays competition^^

well then.... im off to go get some medication be4 the competition~~~

Exam! DAY 02!!!

2006-02-28T19:05:00.000+08:00

phewwwwww got through Day01 of the exams!! not say very well done but hmm... think i will at least get a pass for my ISDT!! =)

well its now.. 3am... and i havnt really started on my revision for my ECAD paper which will commence at 9am later.. this is soooooooo great.... always the case.. worried about the paper but aint doing anything about it LoLxxx...

this is the first ever super duper bad condition i ever had in joining competitions.... im gonna have my semi-finals for singing at partyworld later today.... and the best part is... im down with a throat infection and! im not able to even slp... because i have an exam paper which i have to study for.. meaning i have to ton all the way to study for my paper and later in the day participate in the partyworld competition!!!!

first time getting into the semis for a singing competition... really excited about it.. but also... really down in spirits... how worst can my condition be.. haix i dunno....

***Wish List****
TomYum Soup!!!
Gambeng Soup!!!
Goreng Pisang, Champelak and Tapioca cake!!!
Tempura's chix chop and golden mushroom!! (similar to shi lin)
Chocolates!!!
and all the other dope junk foods out there!!!

im so gonna complete this wish list right after my semi finals END!! regardless whether or not i get into the finals and still have to protect my throat!! dun care liao!!! T_T~~ wads life without all these good food....

Day 1 of exams

2006-02-27T18:21:00.000+08:00

hmm its gonna start at 1400hrs today! the first paper for us..... a module called ISDT~ crappy stuff with lots of diagrams....

sigh*... im in the scenario again... stressed about the exams yet aint really doing anything productive about it ha-ha-ha~ typical my style kinda thing.. hopefully the exam fever will kick in to me like... right now???

thought about lotsa stuff this very night...
现在是2.10am.. 睡不着.. 因为想着你和你说的话...
我不知道你会不会接受我所给你的答案..
觉得.. 我很冲动吗？没认真想过就下决定吗？
谢谢你所为我的顾虑，谢谢你一直为我而着想..
想让你知道.. 我真想过了.. 真的考虑过了..
我的答案还是一样…
你说要再给我三天的考虑期间对吧…
那… 我尊重你的选择..

well then… I guess its time to hit the books in preparation for the first paper…

Another case of a hung IPOD....

2006-02-26T09:10:00.000+08:00

siannnnnnnnnnnnzzzzzzzz waLAO!!!!

My IPOD hung on me again.... its the 2nd TIME!!!! sad... first time was when i was in the MRT going down to orchard.. all i did was changed the track and.... IT HUNG ON ME!!!!

managed to get it back to shape... after it literally gone flat on its battery and it kinda.. restarted.... (i tried restarting it when it hung but it just wont budge)

this time... it hung while i am walking to the MRT station... -.- got out of my hse... reached first floor... plugged in the earphones.. picked a song.. pressed play and..... TA DA!!! IT HUNG AGAIN!!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

think i shall save some $$ to get myself a normal mp3 player... probably the $100 kinda where it can store 512mb of songs... downgrade from 40gb worth of songs to 512mb.. sad***

Went over to Toa Payoh today for a haircut hmmm... was walking pass this comic shop where i saw this:
[PSP v1.5!!! value pack for $405!!!!!!!!]
*thinks hard* nah~~~ dun think too much ba lolx its $400 bucks !!! look on the bright side... a 512mb mp3 player would meant... more compact and space saving!! not like a bulky PSP or IPOD... *self delusion* heck~

~Dota~ played last nite... first time using Bane!!! quite dope LOLXX check it out!

The frag ratio was better at the early game part... but well it was a fun one though lolxxx

well then... i guess its time to study for the upcoming exams.. ZzZzz sad life.. sad truth...

DoTAaAa

2006-02-25T17:13:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.... have been playing DOTA for quite abit lately LOLX!!!
fooled around too much that i got my butt kicked sooo soooo badly... decided to train and kick theirs back!!! GRrrrRrr

well this are the few games which i remembered taking screen shots of =) few best games hee.....

while using Stealth Assassin!!

Felt like a super'PIG' after having a teammate passing me his Buriza LOL!

bored... its 1.02am.... dunno what to do also... Game????? haikx... exams coming in just.... 2days time ha ha ha die liao... ZzzZzz

lotsa stuff to be done.. gonna start dance soon... wanna go look for a job.. either at the same workplace as my friend or.. roadshows? something flexible.. got job accept... no time decline =)

wonder y... used to feel that BAPE stuff are only allllriiiiteee.. BUT! after getting a 2nd hand Baby Milo tee from my friend.. and buying my first Bape tee... hmm feels great!!! hahahaaa but must lay low liao... spent tooo tooo tooo much.. i guess.. if i wanna get pricey stuff like that.. i have to earn them myself...

fresh new start!!!

2006-02-24T19:26:00.000+08:00

FRESH NEW START!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha used to be 'kinda' into blogging last time... but left it isolated there for ages... till i think.. the tagboards are all gone... and stuff lolxxxxx
Well then! this is gonna be a fresh new start for me^^

lots of stuff i wanna update and all would need some time though~

many things happened.... and the one MOST important thing i nid to do now is to.......

"CHERISH"

2006 seems to be a gd year for me.... maybe first times.... many fresh starts!!!!

SPECIAL THX TO DYLAN FOR FINDING THIS DOPE SITE !!!! FINALLY GET TO WATCH THE FULL MTV VERSION!

[many wants this year.... ]

Wanna go back into learning HipHop...

Wanna work hard on my Music... army is coming soon.. so... ya.... last chance for me to make my dreams? maybe....

Wanna cherish ever single time im able to have with 'her'....

Wanna work during IHP next sem.. to earn some expenses for my trip to HK....

hmmmm..... think thats enuff for now eh....