feelin lost...

its 4.45am right now... i shld haf been in bed since 3.15.... but i just cant get slp...

feelin lost*....

havnt been doing crap for my in-house project.... told baobei a couple of wks ago that its time for me to do something about it and to work hard.. but.... wad the hell had i done in the past few days???? crap....

though i really did do a tutorial on building a web site with flash.. but it didnt turn out very well.. and it kinda ended there...

sorry baobei... didnt do wad i said i would do...

what rights do i have now to say that im feelin stress eh.... cause its all due to my self-laziness that caught me up in this mess...

its gonna be 5am soon in another couple of mins... feel like gettin help from Eames or Dylan in the morning to hlp me login for attendence... feel like skipping school today and think through wad i really wanna do for my in-house project... the concepts and all.....

another reason for my "depression" is cause... my project which i came up with... doesnt seem to be strong enuff for me to actually score... its gonna be a 25 credits project and my entire semester would be solely dependent on the outcome of my project.... a plain simple flash web-site... how am i gonna score... i wonder....

add in more elements and stuff??? ...ha... and how do i go arnd doin that???...

its april 13 now.. guess its no turning back and changing my proposal eh... well... thats the strong mindset which i set for myself 30mins ago while tossin and turnin in bed thinking about it....

feelin real lost... i mean... y cant i just simply set heart onto wad i know i must do.... and always be astray from the objectives.... too many temptations? nah... its me letting all this temptations eat me up....

help...