Refocused!!
Today just before my last keyboard lesson started i met my tcher at the downstairs cafe... sat down and spoked with him for awhile... he said that he heard abt me from some of his friends (ppl who used to teach me some music stuff) .. and inquired y i like kind of music school hopped here and there... and oso.. y did i wanna stop learning keyboards over at echo music?
Well in all... i attended 3 music schools haHaa alot??? yea... quite.... i mean who hops like me?? lolx well... they each had a reason y i attended and y i quitted from there...
First one... Guiding Stars... the first ever ever ever music school i attended when i was i think.... sec4?? when i was around 15-16 yrs old... 2001... (arnd there la.. cant rmb the exact dates..) Had lots of memories there... happy, sad and angry ones too... When i was in GS (Guiding Stars for short) i had always wanted to take up vocal lessons instead of keyboards.. BUT!! because i was so super duper introvert and inconfident of myself (at that time) i chose keyboard composing instead.. thinking to myself that learning keyboard composing is also part of music... and since i felt that i could nvr sing.. so y not go into that field instead??? (self denial...........)
Took keyboard composing lessons there for about 1yr?? Then cause between classrooms there is a glass window inbetween.. enableing students from both sides to view each other havin their classes... from there... i saw how vocal classes are being held and thus futhur increased my desire to learn vocals... and then i thought... "to hell with how i sound... i may sux in singing but as long as im happy and i do wad i really wanna do its more then enuff!"
From then on.. i began having lessons at GS... (this may be a long story... realised i have alot to write about the past...)
Underwent double classes of both keyboard composing and vocals... it was great! met new friends... had new exposures.... did wad i always felt most happy doing... singing!!
after spending about 2yrs? (cant rmb the actual dates..) i begin to realise that there is something wrong with that particular music school... Guiding Stars... or rather.. the director of the music school....
Theres too much to talk about that director guy.... that if i were to really write it all down in this post.. it would be i think a 10,000 word essay.... but ya... to cut things short... basically he is a low-life cheapo who lies about every single dam thing to get things done in his way and a VERY good one at it too!!!!! And ya... im the SUPER DUMB one to believe his shit for 2yrs.... (bite me.....)
So ya... i moved on to another music school after being cheated for soooo long.....
2nd one.... Lee Wei Song School Of Music... in short LWSSOM.... i went there for... COMPOSING! hahaha... not vocals... y?!?! same reason.... inferior complexity.... felt that i shldnt waste so much youth and money on something which i felt i could nvr excel.... therefore i cheated myself again and went to enroll for keyboard composing... after not even 2mths... i realised... that i dun feel happy about it at all.... i mean... i really liked to sing alot!.... though i sound bad.. but... yea... i really liked it alot.... and this keyboard composing thing aint cheap there... so yea... i left......
After that... it was kinda a blank phrase for me... didnt do anything about my music life... till my friend recommended this guy called Zheng Quan to me... a pro vocalist and private tcher in vocals =) which yea i had lessons with him... infact... just one?!??? Because after learning from him that one lesson i kinda got back my motivation again to learn vocals and like to hell with all those who thinks i sound bad.. so wad?!? im just gonna pursue my dreams and passion... do wad i like best and tats it!.. and hence i felt that it would be better if i went to a proper school... cause there would be more exposure... able to meet more ppl and all.... and yea i went back to LWSSOM....
(u guys must be thinkin wad the heck is wrong wif me rite??? well yea... had lots of ups and downs inside me then... depressed with wad im doing to myself.... hence... all this sudden/wierd decisions...)
After 3-5mths of vocal lessons at LWSSOM i felt that i aint learning much there... and yea its expensive due to the branding of the school... Lee Wei Song.. haikz~ cause before this i had learnt my vocals from several ppl.. and thru comparison i realised.. i aint improving nor learning new things from LWSSOM... BUT i havnt changed schools due to tat yet!.. cause i was in a mental struggle as i promised my dad that i wanted to completed at least a year's worth of vocals studies over at LWSSOM... and now this.... if i were to continue... would be prove that i held on and accomplished something? or is changing school enableing me to save $$ as it would be cheaper and i would learn more from there?!?!??! really didnt know wad to do... at a lost...
I decided to learn keyboard from outside though... because i felt that i didnt wanna waste the humble keyboard skills of mine.. thats y i went to Echo-Music to learn keyboards there... affordable price and a very good tcher! =)
Then i begin inquiring about the vocal lessons and the vocal tcher over at Echo-Music asking how is it like.. the course fees... the syllabus covered... the tcher's skills and all.... Chris.. the CEO of Echo-Music school haf been teaching vocals for 12yrs! and he even gave me some tips on vocals just like tat!! Felt that the way they teach there is rather good.. and it would enable me to save $50 a mth as it is tat much cheaper!! so yea.. i decided to change school.....
"A school with branding definately has its advantageous.. more exposures.. more events more brand.... but it doesnt ensure u that the teachings there are as good compared to its brand... if a person has wad it takes... no matter where he goes to... he would be offered that opportunity.. therefore its wad i haf in my strength thats impt... not the school...." thats wad i told myself and moved on to my final and current music school...
The final one Echo-Music!!!!! first of all sry guys... i did stopped my keyboard lesson over at Echo-Music because i wanted to save cost... and felt that... ive aquired lots of new stuff over there for keyboards... and its more like up to me to practise them.... so yea i decided to own time own target keyboards and focus on my vocals instead....
Felt rather lost recently cause i felt that the more i sing the worst i sound...
Everything which ive learnt in the past and my own experiences enabled me to gather this style of my own.. which i felt confident as i knew wad i could do... my strength my weaknesses... but this old teachings + my own style + new teachings is making me messed up... and hence i feel kinda wierd.. dunno wad the heck am i singing...
Then i had a chat with my baobei michelle.. who told me about passion and shared her views with me... and now... its gonna be a focused me on my passion... singing!!!! Entering the army soon... i would be wasting time if i still dun settle down... this time its all out.... full blown me on singing! just hope that i can improve and have a performance which ppl would regconize me as a person who can sing.... tts all............. just wanna sing.........
Yep^^ this is a "brief" story of how i got to where i am now...
Baobei still feeling unwell??? sigh... really worried for u.... hope u get well soon.. take care k?.... i will show u the fruits of my labour! show u a focused and settled me... show u my passion! thx for givin me ur support and motivation.. love ya lots... thx.....
Well in all... i attended 3 music schools haHaa alot??? yea... quite.... i mean who hops like me?? lolx well... they each had a reason y i attended and y i quitted from there...
First one... Guiding Stars... the first ever ever ever music school i attended when i was i think.... sec4?? when i was around 15-16 yrs old... 2001... (arnd there la.. cant rmb the exact dates..) Had lots of memories there... happy, sad and angry ones too... When i was in GS (Guiding Stars for short) i had always wanted to take up vocal lessons instead of keyboards.. BUT!! because i was so super duper introvert and inconfident of myself (at that time) i chose keyboard composing instead.. thinking to myself that learning keyboard composing is also part of music... and since i felt that i could nvr sing.. so y not go into that field instead??? (self denial...........)
Took keyboard composing lessons there for about 1yr?? Then cause between classrooms there is a glass window inbetween.. enableing students from both sides to view each other havin their classes... from there... i saw how vocal classes are being held and thus futhur increased my desire to learn vocals... and then i thought... "to hell with how i sound... i may sux in singing but as long as im happy and i do wad i really wanna do its more then enuff!"
From then on.. i began having lessons at GS... (this may be a long story... realised i have alot to write about the past...)
Underwent double classes of both keyboard composing and vocals... it was great! met new friends... had new exposures.... did wad i always felt most happy doing... singing!!
after spending about 2yrs? (cant rmb the actual dates..) i begin to realise that there is something wrong with that particular music school... Guiding Stars... or rather.. the director of the music school....
Theres too much to talk about that director guy.... that if i were to really write it all down in this post.. it would be i think a 10,000 word essay.... but ya... to cut things short... basically he is a low-life cheapo who lies about every single dam thing to get things done in his way and a VERY good one at it too!!!!! And ya... im the SUPER DUMB one to believe his shit for 2yrs.... (bite me.....)
So ya... i moved on to another music school after being cheated for soooo long.....
2nd one.... Lee Wei Song School Of Music... in short LWSSOM.... i went there for... COMPOSING! hahaha... not vocals... y?!?! same reason.... inferior complexity.... felt that i shldnt waste so much youth and money on something which i felt i could nvr excel.... therefore i cheated myself again and went to enroll for keyboard composing... after not even 2mths... i realised... that i dun feel happy about it at all.... i mean... i really liked to sing alot!.... though i sound bad.. but... yea... i really liked it alot.... and this keyboard composing thing aint cheap there... so yea... i left......
After that... it was kinda a blank phrase for me... didnt do anything about my music life... till my friend recommended this guy called Zheng Quan to me... a pro vocalist and private tcher in vocals =) which yea i had lessons with him... infact... just one?!??? Because after learning from him that one lesson i kinda got back my motivation again to learn vocals and like to hell with all those who thinks i sound bad.. so wad?!? im just gonna pursue my dreams and passion... do wad i like best and tats it!.. and hence i felt that it would be better if i went to a proper school... cause there would be more exposure... able to meet more ppl and all.... and yea i went back to LWSSOM....
(u guys must be thinkin wad the heck is wrong wif me rite??? well yea... had lots of ups and downs inside me then... depressed with wad im doing to myself.... hence... all this sudden/wierd decisions...)
After 3-5mths of vocal lessons at LWSSOM i felt that i aint learning much there... and yea its expensive due to the branding of the school... Lee Wei Song.. haikz~ cause before this i had learnt my vocals from several ppl.. and thru comparison i realised.. i aint improving nor learning new things from LWSSOM... BUT i havnt changed schools due to tat yet!.. cause i was in a mental struggle as i promised my dad that i wanted to completed at least a year's worth of vocals studies over at LWSSOM... and now this.... if i were to continue... would be prove that i held on and accomplished something? or is changing school enableing me to save $$ as it would be cheaper and i would learn more from there?!?!??! really didnt know wad to do... at a lost...
I decided to learn keyboard from outside though... because i felt that i didnt wanna waste the humble keyboard skills of mine.. thats y i went to Echo-Music to learn keyboards there... affordable price and a very good tcher! =)
Then i begin inquiring about the vocal lessons and the vocal tcher over at Echo-Music asking how is it like.. the course fees... the syllabus covered... the tcher's skills and all.... Chris.. the CEO of Echo-Music school haf been teaching vocals for 12yrs! and he even gave me some tips on vocals just like tat!! Felt that the way they teach there is rather good.. and it would enable me to save $50 a mth as it is tat much cheaper!! so yea.. i decided to change school.....
"A school with branding definately has its advantageous.. more exposures.. more events more brand.... but it doesnt ensure u that the teachings there are as good compared to its brand... if a person has wad it takes... no matter where he goes to... he would be offered that opportunity.. therefore its wad i haf in my strength thats impt... not the school...." thats wad i told myself and moved on to my final and current music school...
The final one Echo-Music!!!!! first of all sry guys... i did stopped my keyboard lesson over at Echo-Music because i wanted to save cost... and felt that... ive aquired lots of new stuff over there for keyboards... and its more like up to me to practise them.... so yea i decided to own time own target keyboards and focus on my vocals instead....
Felt rather lost recently cause i felt that the more i sing the worst i sound...
Everything which ive learnt in the past and my own experiences enabled me to gather this style of my own.. which i felt confident as i knew wad i could do... my strength my weaknesses... but this old teachings + my own style + new teachings is making me messed up... and hence i feel kinda wierd.. dunno wad the heck am i singing...
Then i had a chat with my baobei michelle.. who told me about passion and shared her views with me... and now... its gonna be a focused me on my passion... singing!!!! Entering the army soon... i would be wasting time if i still dun settle down... this time its all out.... full blown me on singing! just hope that i can improve and have a performance which ppl would regconize me as a person who can sing.... tts all............. just wanna sing.........
Yep^^ this is a "brief" story of how i got to where i am now...
Baobei still feeling unwell??? sigh... really worried for u.... hope u get well soon.. take care k?.... i will show u the fruits of my labour! show u a focused and settled me... show u my passion! thx for givin me ur support and motivation.. love ya lots... thx.....
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