hmmm...

Yesterday's outing with baobei was GREAT! AWESOME! OMG! in the morning we went down to WILD WILD WET and had great time playing all the rides and relaxing in the circular pool called "Shiok River" and oso relaxing ourselves at the wave pool called "Tsunami".. i felt that the 2 most interesting ride was the "Power Slide" and the "Ular lar" heee~ dam fun!!!!

really felt very hungry after tat... so we went to haf KFC! u know.... after swimming and stuff.. all these finger food = HEAVEN! lolxXxxx

we passed by an arcade and decided to play afew games lolx.. play untill we were like so tired... y? cause we challenged ourselves into playing the basketball hoop game where there are 4 stages and we only managed to go to the third stage .. sigh... *first time playing ma*... but we tried and tried untill our arms cannot really raise up liao... tired...

last but not least...we went down to my mum's workplace for... SPA and MASSAGE! Woaaaaa shIOK AR!!! tt was wad i really needed man... my body has been aching for sooo long i really needed a good massage... after tat we went into the steamer and then.... to the "hot spring"!! dun really know wad they call tat... but its the pool with one side hot water and the other side cold water~ omg... its soooooooooooooooooooooooo relaxing..... sooooooo gddddddddddd....... simply felt heaven....

hope to be able to go for spa with baobei again someday! ^^



like i said.. im planning to stop my music lessons.... felt that ive already spent a huge fortune on music already for the past 3yrs+..... so i guess maybe its time i put an end to it and maybe let myself take up something new??

been thinking of taking up a dance + a sport .... sport because i wanna keep fit a little.. getting fat liaoz zzzzzzzzzz........... T_T.... and dance for interest.... hmmm shld i ??

sigh......

haiz.... im being unattentive again..... baobei not feelin very well lately... got a wisdom tooth in the process of growing out and its hurting her like mad.... and as well as gastric which she told me on the phone and i did not hear...

jialat.... -.-~~ havnt been showing her the attention that she requires.. sry baobei.... T_T~ i will change/improve de ok? =)

alot of stuff going thru my mind lately.... mainly things about the future.. but wadever it is.. its all for the better... its all for wad i hope to accomplish in life! =)

wanted to read my book tonite but... its kinda late liao.. plus i haf work in the morning tml... haf the sudden urge to skip work tml... cause anyway they already haf 2 full timers on station there tml... dun see y they nid me... but well... cannot be like tat rite? will try to drag my body out of bed tml morning... *hopefully* lolx...

nitez guys.... sugar dreams all =)

seemingly series of unfortunate events...

this mth has full of surprises... ups and downs for me...

first of all this mth due to over-expenditure im already kinda tight as i start of the mth with much lesser then wad i would normally haf... and guess wad..... I BOUGHT THE WRONG CONCESSION CARD! T_T.... i bought the bus concession instead of the MRT one... and it could not be changed... meaning i hafta wait for my bus concession to end be4 i can purchase the MRT concession card... and tat would take 1 mth!!!!!! so now.. ontop of me having much lesser then i normally do... i still haf to top up my card every 3-4 days to enable me on my MRT rides... crap rite!!

and recently i managed to get myself a Sony PSP!! yeaA!! HOWEVER!! it cannot play downloadable games!!! and i purposely bought it for that purpose!! while trying to play those games.. my psp hanged and froze and scared the crap outta me.. tot tat it would die on me... really...

but today... after eating a miracle roast duck.... IT WORKED!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA can play liao!!! woohoooo


p.s: it sometimes pays to listen to the elderly for their pantang "comments" =X (kidding~~)

感触

今天回家的时候突然间心里面有很多的感触。
宝贝好像不开心，跟她妈妈起了一点小冲突。。所以觉得有点难过。。。
我好担心。。好担心。。。

有一次宝贝她很难过但却没有打给我。。只用短讯的方式跟我说。。。但是那时的我却已经睡着了。。没有听到短讯的铃声。。。 让宝贝独自一人难过却又没人能听她述说她的不开心。。。她的难过。。 那时的我很气很气我自己。。 对自己说。。 我刘瑞海不会再让宝贝伤心难过了！。。。

但是现在的她。。难过。。但我却无能为力。。

我好逊。。。。

真差劲。。。。

今天在回家的路上突然想到。。。 我和宝贝在一起已经有半年了。。。在这半年了。。我们从暧昧到相爱到学习到热恋值到现在。。。 学习是因为当初的我真的很不会做一个男朋友。。让宝贝觉得很空虚。。。直到现在。。。 我们想请想爱，手牵着手的走到现在。。。 真的长大了好多好多。。。

宝贝。。 现在的你开心吗？ 幸福吗？ 睡的好吗？ 在难过吗？ 心里觉得辛苦吗？ 我好想好想清口对你说一句。。“宝贝晚安~ 我爱你 =)”

好想和你分担你的哀与怒。。和你分享你的喜与乐。。
call u later ok? anything u feeling down abt oso can speak to me =)

nitez baobei

thanks to all those who gave me tips and guidance..

Thinking back upon my journey thru my music life...

i wonder... has it already been 4yrs?? learning music ever since secondary4-5 right up till now.. polytechnic yr3... ventured from keyboard composing to learning wad i really wanted.. vocals... went to different music schools to learn from different ppl.. made friends and of course made 'enemies' (Sxcaven in particular).... many ups and many downs... but all these experiences made me who i am today^^ all these ppl that ive met each taught me valuable lessons in my life..

im going to stop learning music... and i would like to thank all those who haf ever taught me... gave me tips.... discuss with me about music/singing... and also those who i haf worked with to stage all those performances.. to create all those memories...

hopefully i dun miss anyone out.. (if i do... paiseh arhx =X)

i would like to thank these ppl who haf taught me about music: Tang Yu Xuan, Ein Ein, Kelly, Lin Juan, Zheng Quan, Estella, Lin Jun Jie (teacher from lee wei song), Sherlyn, Chris, Simon.

haha seems like quite alot.. wonder if ive left out any... sry if i did =X old liao... memory not gd *ahem ahem*..............

Arigato Gozaimasu!!!!!

nvr ever so pissed part 2!!!

OMG FREAKING GOD!......... aqua leh... if you wanna talk it out then come find me la! y go email mich?????????? aqua....

this is the mails tat he mailed to baobei.. which is really really so f*** up... making it as if he is the victims and we play the bad person.... trying to twist the story up.... plz la.. dare to do dare not admit ar?? asshole..

those in red are my own text to shoot him back.

(Mail 1)

I am so dissapointed in you telling the "jokes" i made to him. Replying your msn conversation, peeking your msn converstion, closing your msn window, seeing your password?? Fine if you say i did it although i didn (u sure u didnt? plz la stop defending urself saying u did all the right things and ultimately if u cant lie tat u did it.. u use "oh~ its just a joke" as an excuse.. fuck off la). I didn know you are that petty and minded them and you could have stated that firmly. Im sorry then. Guess this end it all. In fact i shouldn even tried to make you laugh. (plz la... u urself dun even haf the brains to know wad can be done and wad can not... dun expect anyone to spoon feed u with their emotions...)

Oh for the sake that i helped you in your IAP project abit one last request from me, please don't show him this email. And in case you did, hi there douglas and yes i don't like you and no im not trying to "harras" her with this email just trying to apologise for the jokes. (plz.. apologetic?? dun seem so to me)

Sorry

(Mail 2, which is much more infuriating!!! TMD he say untill he like so noble????!!!)

argh the more i think about it the more it frustrate me. i think i got backstabbed and died unreasonably. I need to explain myself. (u sure u got backstabbed??? or rather have u been backstabbing me all this while instead? talk cock!)

".. u haf been repeadly insulting me.."
I already promised you since your birthday i wouldn't go insult your boyfriend and so had i ceased alot. (WOW! so i must THANK YOU!??! ive been eating ur insults so long.. mich had to plz u to stop insulting me.. and since u ceased alot.. i haf to thank you instead??? eh WTF IS THIS KINDA LOGIC??)

"peeking at mich's msn conversations.."
Come on, you didn even really make a fuss about it and i never hear you say, hey i don't like you invading your privacy, please turn your square head away or something like that. (LIKE I SAID.. NOT EVERYONE IS LIKE U SO THICK SKINNED! dun expect anyone to spoonfeed u with their emotions! wtf... are u dumb or stupid)

"replying her msn conversation behind her back.."
gesh, it like once? and that you already knew it so it isn't really behind your back. Not like its any serious thing. (PLZZ its like sooooo something tat one shldnt do at all??? who the fuck goes arnd hlping ppl reply their msn conversations?? u dun even haf the least bit of human instincts to know wad is right from wrong?)

"Closing her msn windows.."
When i was helping you with your coding which i utterly regret now, i need to close all the chat windows becausing its cluttering up the taskbar which frustrate me especially when i need to focus with the coding, alt tabbing through EditPlus, JCreator all these..
(COMMON LAR EXCUSES! THE WTF IS THAT TIME WHERE I WAS MSGING MICH THEN U READ MY MSG ALOUD AND AFTER THAT SAY.. "AHHH SHUDDAP LA" THEN CLOSE MY WINDOW????? FOR FUN AR?!!? FOR JOKE?? FUCK U!)

"peeking at her passwords.."
WHoa whoa.. i remembered i told you last time when i was behind you i accidently saw you stupidly typed your password at the username field at msn login.. peeking at her password.. geesh.. (a bloody normal human being.... when someone is entering their passwords would naturally WITHOUT BEING TOLD turn their heads away!.... omg... u dun even know tat?)

"what are you trying to achieved.."
YOUR SMILE YOUR LAUGHTER!! the color in your life that you wanted to add in! Now i know why jacky got smack in his head for trying to be funny. (wAHAHAHA trying to act noble?? plz la u are doing all the freaking wrongs things)

Now the only thing which i really really do is cursing your relationship (fuck u!)which all this could be avoided if you just make your stand firmly like "look closely into my eye.. you can see im not joking about what im going to say.. please stop invading my privacy" but instead keep complaining to him what happened + spices you add behind me and i don't know why he make a fuss about it only until yesterday so please enlighten me on this. (TAT IS BECAUSE MICH DUN WAN ME TO CREATE ANY TROUBLE SO I TOLERATED UR BLOODY PIECE OF SHIT ASS JOKES FOR HALF A YEAR DAMMIT!)

Alright thanks i vented my frustration, and for the trouble ive caused i apologised and we got nothing to do with each other now.. and next time i see you and douglas in school unforunately next sem lets just walk away like we don't see each other. (Y THE FUCK MUST U VENT UR ANGER AND FRUSTRATION ON MICH! COME AND FIND ME LA! LETS VENT IT OUT! act as if we dont see each other? y cant we see each other and settle this instead??? wad are u trying to prove!)

Enough said.

(end of mails)

zzzzzzzz wtf?!?!?!? common la... the reasons y i very reply him or anything is because

no.1 even if i called... he wont dare to pick up.... bloody hell...
no2. smsing him would only waste my smses..... no point in talking to such ppl... *pukes blood*

the only left would be when school starts.. but... this kinda aqua zheng freakin waste my time and breath to talk to.... see how first ba... see my mood..... seriously... i nvr ever felt so pissed in my life be4.... NVR! he is one freaking prick that is making my blood boil so bad!

nvr ever so pissed off!!!!

BY A PERSON I DUN EVEN REALLY KNOW!............................

he is a schoolmate of mine... called Allan.. and as well as baobei's colleague/teammate at their attachment company. this f***er here really pissed me off!

during their internship period.. he has been repeatedly insulting me, baobei and mine r/s and as well as harassing baobei at the office!!! i repeat... i dun even know him!! only hi and bye as i only know him by name and seen him in sch be4... i nvr ever did or said anything about him!!!

this is wad he did....

for me.. he insulted me by making jokes out of me.. like calling me names like 'white tiger'... saying that i keep copying the stuff tat he did for example, he likes to sing.. and says tat i copy him... he drive car i oso drive car.... i mean WTF?! ive been learning music since my sec. school days and i passed my driving test way long BEFORE HIM!... and the most recent one was... during a lunch with him, irene and their colleague.. they were discussing upon a topic: "Guys nowadays very niang(gayish) they like find girlfriend to cover up that they are niang"... then Allan said: ya lor! Douglas la.. dun u think he very niang? i think he and mich together is just to cover up that he is niang...

WTF?!?! ok nvm... small matter??? fine.... i eat it....

next....

he keeps saying tat me and baobei will not last... our r/s will not endure and go on.... and then? that she will be his... when baobei fought back against his statement.. he simply said... "in the future who knows? dun be too sure now".... wtf!?!? baobei and i got together by enduring alot of shit ok! our r/s did not started off smoothly like any other couples.. there was alot of obstacles.. alot of problems tat we both undergo together to be able to maintain our r/s at this level! who the F*** is he to condem and insult our r/s?!?!?

still small matter?!?!?!? fine... i ATE IT AS WELL......

more to come...

during their internship... Allan kept poking fun at baobei.... making comments tat im far more inferior to him.. and how smart he is... he even commented tat baobei and irene's work scope did not involve brains??? and his workscope is soo much harder then theirs and requires more brains and knowledge??? wtFF?!? they haf been working their ass off and this is wad u say?? u dun even know how to do their work la!!! next... he always peeks at baobei's msn conversations... he even replied for her while she was away!!!! WTF?!?! who does he think he is???? wad gives him the right to invade the privacy of others??? Guess wad... there was once when i was msn-ing baobei... he was sitted right beside her... her read all of our conversations and then he did his.. he said: "arrrrrr shut up la!" and he closed my window!!! WTF?!?!?! and the most infuriating thing is that he actually peeked at baobei's password!!! EH WHO DOES HE F**KING THINK HE IS??? F**KED UP LA!

Sometimes baobei requires his help.. he would move over to her desktop.... and wad? he would purposely try to use the mouse BUT! even noticing purposely touch baobei's hand...and he did this... MANY TIMES!.... baobei doesnt like ppl to talk behind her.. it feels awkward.. and he has to purposely make it more obvious and do it even more!!!

i tell u.... all this things tat he has done.. ive been tolerating them for close to HALF A YEAR ALREADY!!! WTF MAN...... NO MORE OF THIS SHIT FROM HIM!

i called him today... wanted to confront him and ask him wad does he wan to achieve from all this nonsense that he is doing....

i called him:
i said: is this allan ling?
he said: ya?
i said: WAD THE FUCK ARE U TRYING TO PROVE??!
he said: huh?
i said: WADDD THEEE FUCKKK AREEE UU TRYINGGG TOO PROVE??!?!?


!#$#$%^%&%^*

then afterwards.. my friend called him as well.. and the same thing happened... he hung up again... so i decided to sms him.... this are the messages... not altered or edited.... exactly how it was written and received...

I wrote:
"eh fucker dare to insult me and harass michelle behind my back, dare not answer my phone ah?! This is Douglas here! Lets settle this once and for all!"

"I know all the fucking things that u have been saying behind my back.. So wad the fuck do you wan now? i tolerated your shit so fucking long! Lets settle it now!"

He did not reply my smses.. but smsed michelle this:
"What is all this for?"

I wrote back to him:
"What for ask mich wad is this all about when u haf been repeatedly insulting me and my relationship with mich.. Peeking at mich's msn conversations.. Replying her msn conversations behind her back.. Closing her msn windows.. Peeking at her passwords.. She doesnt like ppl to talk closely behind her back and u purposely keep doing tat.. invading her privacy and all.. Jst wad the fuck are u trying to achieve? Dare to do dare not to own up? i white tiger? i niang? fucked up... u dun even dare talk to me on the phone bloody gu niang.. Go get yourself a life and stop being an irritant"

He finally replied me:
"Ah relax. All was nothing but joke. These was just to spice up your girl life in the company. I doubt i and she will ever have the chance to talk again anyway. What i want you say? Nothing but chill down and im sorry. Now if you're still angry which i know you are this question should be directed to you. What you want. Na i won't take your call."

i replied:
"I dun wish for any of these kind of 'jokes' anymore.. i seriously dun find it funny and i have tolerated those so called jokes for close to half a year and im really very pissed right now... Stop all this shit.. Or lets talk face to face if u have any comments to make"

He wrote:
"Haha did mich not tell you i am niang. There is some truth in it but there is something which you don't understand. Anyway you verge your and i apologise. Good night"


i stopped this conversation... wasting my time and breath on him.... at least i got the message across that i know of the insults tat he has been making and i dun wish for them to happen again!...

zzzzzzzzz ive nvr gotten so angry with anyone be4!! he is the FIRST!!!!!!!! he shld be honoured.. anywayz.. im off to bed.. wad a day....

That nostalgic feelin..

its been soo long....

so long since ive ate at my grandparent's hse.....

so long since ive tasted ah gong's cookin....

ive had a long day's of work during NDP... after at i went down to my grandparents hse to have dinner =) its been very long since ive went down there or even met up with my grandparents... so very long..

during dinner i really really ate alot! but it wasnt because i was extremely hungry or anything.. it was more like... ive nvr eaten these home cooked food for a very long time... very very long time...

the taste of my ah gong's famous "Lu Ya" (duck) was sooooooooo good!!! i still rmb the times when i was still very young.. ah gong and ah ma would always save a drumstick for me... awwww that feeling.... so nostalgic....

i think its been really long since ive ate home cooked food tats y hahaha... but nontheless.. my grandparent's culinary skills are THE BEST!!! =)


*hope to be able to bring baobei over my grandparent's hse one day to taste their food!*

August 5!!!!! fireworks!!! sweetest nite ever!

August the 5th is the sweetest and happiest nite ever since 2006's Valentines Day (the day Michelle and I got together officially).

Fireworks are one of the most beautiful pieces of art ever to be viewed in the sky.....

Baobei was so sweettttt~~~ she actually went to enroll for this newspaper lucky draw contest thingy and the prize was..... a first class view of the fireworks during the fireworks festival last sat on August 5th!!!!! and she won it!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeee (thx baobei for ur lovely arrangement!)

We had to be there at 7pm be4 the crowd starts building up at one fullerton where the firework festival is to be held...

and here are some of the pictures!

We went early to raffles place to have a drink and chill out first!


ta daaaaaaaaaaa the contest tickets tat baobei won for us!!! =)


At one fullerton... wads one of the most prominent thing????
THE MERLION!!!!!!


Heeee while waiting hard for the fireworks to start.... we decided to take some pictures!!!


ahhhh the lovely night view....


the love of baobei and i!! muackzzzzzzzzzzzzz


this picture is NOT EDITED or PHOTOSHOPPED we had totally no idea how it happened.. but it looked so cool haha


and.. there u go... the FIREWORKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Lastly.... be4 the nite was over.. i presented to baobei.......


Giving this ring to baobei really means alot to me.... alot alot..... i hope to give baobei happiness.. i hope to share her burdens and sorrows.... i hope that together we can carve our a future tat belongs to ours! =) a future tat is full of happiness and joy!

Baobei i love u~~ muackzzzzzz

aishetieru

had a long long long long chat with baobei last nite... cleared up afew stuff... managed to know wad i have been doing.. wad i tot i was doing but didnt... wad i tot i was trying to express but could not.... wad i tot was good for us but wasnt....

i was so shocked...

i really was............

when baobei said some stuff tat she feels how i felt and prioritised her... when to me.... she has always been first in my heart.... i didnt know she tot of me as this kinda person...

it hurts.....

it really does.......

after pouring out each of our hearts we finally got to know how each of us felt and wad we are thinking..... how we looked at this r/s of ours...

therefore right now we have reconciled and i believe thru this conversation.. our r/s have taken a step further!!! =)

*Problems and obstacles are not there to destroy a relationship... but thru overcoming them... it brings relationships to a greater height*


"baobei.. everything i said last nite... really are from the bottom of my heart... i really mean it.... i love u!"

Ive done it again...

There u go.. ive done it again.. many many times.... baobei is already so mad at me liao.... but im still just as insensitive as be4....

fuck la... y am i still like this.. so insensitive.. so inconsiderate....................

whenever there is any planning needed to be done.. i jut cant plan a proper plan for baobei to help her be able to attend the event and as well as be answerable to her family....

screw myself....

......

Sad.... just played 2 games of dota just now and lost... sigh*...... but thats pretty not wad im sad about... was on the phone with baobei and realised that.. im not gd enuff afterall... im still lacking that something to make me a better bf... i tot i roughly know how to be a gd bf le... but i guess its still not enuff...

This mth is a new beginning for me! i have lots of plans for the future and from today onwards im working hard for them! though today heard abt the 'news' from baobei.. alittle sad.. but~~ i will work hard!! i believe i will eventually reach the standards of baobei =)

Im working this friday again... gonna stand till ache T_T~~ BTW.. if anyone is interested... P.O.A at bugis deals with 'vintage' kinda clothings =) so if u r interested do come down to visit me! but.... no discount ar... i not full time staff T_T

ok.... im off to bed then...

baobei... regarding that matter i will really go and think hard about it... i will work hard to improve myself de.... nitez...

OmMgGg?!

SIGH.... my tagboard got un-registered due to the lack of usage.. and ya its because i did not update my blog~~

The last time i blogged was like... July 3rd?!?! tat is like one mth ago la... omg... cobwebs everywhere in my blog liao.. time to do some updating!!! =)



for those of u who haf not watched this show yet.. plz go and watch it!! its a great hit! lots and lots of action~ punching, kicking and nuchaku-ing~~ hahaHAa for all u action movie lovers out there.. PLZ CATCH THIS MOVIE! ITS A MUST!

Baobei and i just caught this movie on the last sat~ both of us were really amazed but the moves that they executed in this movie! After that we headed down to CHIMES for dinner at this brazilian restaurant called "Carnivore" where they serve brazilian grilled food such as beef, lamb, chicken, pork sausages and others =) it was a lovely dinner.. it was a lovely night.. it really was~ heeee =X

Just starting working at P.O.A (People Of Asia) at Parco Bugis Junction.. $5/hr.. kinda dirt pay but... wtheck i needed to kill some time... too much time at home makes me go nutz... i really needed to do something to make me not feel wasted

I already haf my VIVA presentation marks! i was given on the spot by my supervisor and i had gotten a B+ grade!!!! =) so overall.. my supervisor said tat i would be able to attain a B grade for my in-house project =) wahaHaHAa no more worries for me!! Now must pray hard for baobei's grades as well.. she had some setbacks during her presentation due to her 2nd marker being a BITCH~ ive nvr seen a person sooooo rude before.. she didnt say that she is ending the presentation or anything and just walked out of the room like that!! and during the time where we where fixing some technical problems.. she just left the room! and we had to call her back after we settled the problem.. and she didnt even said anything.. just packed up and leave.. wtf man... must pray for baobei... dun worry k? everything will be fine de =)

After all these series of events over i can now finally do the stuff that i wan to do! i wanna read more books... wanna read more newspapers (nvr really had the habit to) i wanna learn more stuff as well! recently i sorta haf a slight interest in fashion design~ maybe i shall go read about them =)

Woa.. this is seriously a long piece of post? haha well... after so long u cant really blame me eh? k then.. im off to bed.. nitez~~ =)