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this is my final piece.. fried the first one..



ya.. nitez...

fashion design

been wanting to try out designing my own apparels.... like for example the most basic one would be tee-shirt design.. graphic tees... managed to come out with a graphic design which i felt aint bad for starters! =) gonna buy the materiels tml and hopefully it would be able to be 'created' lolx... i wonder how it would turn out... zzzzz

haahaha went to have a drink with my classmates they all... not club.. but just a small drink over at 'balcony' located at heeren.... each of us had a shot of sex on the beach and then the few of us.. mainly me and baobei, eames and irene, dajun and eugene each shared a cup of waterfall =) cool drink haha

pretty tired le nitez!!

kicked....

hah.... i got kicked out of the superstar compy le... only managed to get to rnd 2.... and.. i got kicked out without any comments summore lolx... just a flashing red light and a cruel 'teeeddddddd' sound...

after all the waiting.... since rnd 1 till now.. u wont believe it... out of the 2500 ppl who went for the first rnd.. only 111 made it to the 2nd rnd... and ... im the number 111th one to be auditioned... yes... im the last one! the very last one! ..zzzzzzzzzzz

special and great thx to baobei for staying with me thru out this whole competition be it rain or shine.. im really touched and i really really appreciate it alot... thx baobei.... muackz!! love u =)

special thx to mark oso lolx~~ came down both times on rnd 1 and 2 to keep me and baobei accompany =) hahahaha although alot of 'fei hua' from him but... heee it would haf been a much more straineous wait without him around talking cock =X

to my mum... thx for forking out time from work to come and listen to me sing =) .... though i didnt get in.. but i would say its my best stage performance le~~~ hope at least u guys liked my singing....

thx to all my friends who gave me their blessings too!!! heee... thx thx thx =)

tts all there is to my music dream... at least its a nice ending =)

THAnk YOU ALL!!!!!!

superstar rnd2 !

its my round 2 audition of SuperStar tml..... at 11am... at toa payoh central... haiz.... gettin pretty nervous.... cant hlp feelin tat i sound wierd or something...

well.. at least baobei will be there with me tml.. it would hlp =) makes me more confident too! haha... and.. this is the first time i would be singing on stage infront of baobei.. i hope to make it a nice one...

right now... im just seeking to leave an impression on stage ( a good one of course ) and i guess... that would be sufficient =)

nitez... tell u guys my results tml!

SuperStar 2!

First of all... i wanna give lots of thanks to baobei for supporting and accompanying me for the superstar audition... u guys wont understand how tiring and how bad the queue was... me and baobei queued up under the hot sun from 9.30am till 7pm.... nearly ten hours!!! DOING NUTTING BUT STONE UNDER THE SUN AND WAIT!!!! ... and because of this.. baobei had a burnt on her nose.. stupid hot sun....

and the best part was... THE DATE WAS EXTENDED! .. meaning.... we queued for 10hrs and in return.. they ask us to come back again tml... zzzzzzzzzzzzz

after que-ing so long.. u expect us to give up and forget it?! cannot be ma... so baobei again accompanied me down for the auditions today... sigh.... hafta stone for afew hrs again...

but! all was worth it ba... because....

I GOT THRU THE FIRST RND OF SUPERSTAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo!!!
my goal achieved!! heeeee

i only wanted to get thru the first rnd to prove that i improved.... and now... im just gonna work hard and enjoy the compy... =) hafta prepare for the next rnd on the 16th of sept!

wish me luck!

cant get myself to slp..

its now already 5.35am.... and i still cant force myself to slp.... each time i close my eyes i keep seeing images and scenes which i so do not wan them to happen... im scared.. im feelin sad.... im feeling bad about myself..

i feel so lost... keep making mistakes.. keep doing stupid things.... keep avoiding things.....

it all happened so fast... one moment everything was so nice and perfect.. suddenly the next.... it felt as if it was the end of the world for me.... this feeling.. this feeling really feels so bad... feels like u cant breath... feels like u are falling off a cliff without anything to cling on to.. it feels like ur surroundings all became black and white...

im really sry for wad i did... i probably said this like 999 times... but im really sorry... cant find any other words to express my feelings.. feel like punching myself... y the fuck am i so dumb.... my heart really hurts alot rite now... alot of mix emotions.. alot of deep thoughts... alot of flashing images of wad may happen going thru my head....

thinking too much? maybe.... i dunno....